Not feeling excited..?

I am currently 37 + 2 and labour day is coming soon. I am not feeling very excited tbh, feel sad that my child free days are over, that my life will never be the same again and worrying that I’ll be a bad parent (and an anxious parent too).

I’ve been with my partner for 6 years, we own a house together and generally speaking we have a lot of support however I’m also concerned he isn’t growing up enough because of the support and dependency (from his family) and lack of maturity around what it’s actually going to be like having a baby. I fear he is too positive about it all and to be quite honest that really annoys me.

I’m not sleeping, I don’t feel supported and I am so uncomfortable in this heat. Ironically, the physical aspects of birth don’t worry me too much it’s just everything else!

Can someone please sense check me and tell me everything is going to be okay?!?

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Before I had my little girl I was terrified of becoming a mum. I had no clue what I was doing, and as much as it was all planned I was panicking. Not about birth, I knew that was completely out of my control and I just had to go with it. I had recurring dreams throughout my pregnancy that I wouldnt feed the baby, or I would just be neglectful and forgetful. My partner is a big kid. I cannot tell you how much everything fell into place for us. My partner stepped up in a way I didnt even know he could, I fell straight into the role of mother so naturally. I had to have an emergency section, so as soon as I could start getting up and do more, you couldnt stop me from being there for my baby. It will be okay. Amd if your partner isnt stepping up in the ways you need him too, tell him. Men can be a little bit clueless, and Ive had to have some hard conversations at times, because my partner has dropped the ball at times. But you will be okay, and there is a lot of support out there if you need it too x

Hey... Just know you're not alone. I hadn't been with my partner v long before we found out I was pregnant and he is 10 years younger than me... Even now with baby he can be and say some really irritating and immature things but I've slowly had to learn to let go and just let him do him. There are times when he gets stressed and needs me to help him with baby crying, fussing etc and he won't often tell me he needs my support but he does tell me everyday what a fantastic mum I am and how I'm soo good at what I do.
For me I've been learning that not everyone is going to do what I think is best but at least we all have the babies best interest at heart.
I also felt the same way about not being child free and ultimately living life for me even 2 days before she came I was second guessing but now I cannot imagine a life without her in it.
Everything your feeling is valid and normal you just have to acknowledge it and let it pass as each hour / day brings diff emotions. That'll be the norm for a while maybe xxx

I think your thought process is healthy to be honest.
All I ever wanted was to be a mum. Ive always loved kids and been good with children but motherhood hit me harder than i expected. I thought id take it all in my stride but it was difficult, especially with a baby with colic.
Im 10 months in and shes the absolute apple of my eye. I know her, she knows me. Her dad is a massive kid and needs a boot up the backside regularly but he is totally coming into his own now and is a fantastic dad. The newborn stage in hindsight wasnt for us. Give me the little sass pants and bubbly personality any day of the week. You get by by telling yourself 'this is just a phase' at any difficult stage. My experience is it just gets better and better.

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