Why am I so awkward and bad at socialising 😓😫

Just a vent really, I met up with a group of mums today from baby group and we all went for a walk and I'm just so so bad at socialising, I was the quietest one and I can never contribute to the conversation very well or people don't hear me and talk over me and I feel so awkward arghhhh! How do you do it???

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Money advice please!

I am currently 15 weeks pregnant and both me and my partner work full time. We have a house together and we split the bills 50/50. Due to a recent job change, he earns less than me and hasn’t been able to save anything since we moved house. When I am on maternity leave, my earnings will drop and it isn’t enough to cover the mortgage and bills for the house and his earnings won’t cover it either. I have some savings that I’ll have to use but it will mean that my years of sacrifice and saving up before we even met, will all be spent and the financial support will be provided by me only. I’m struggling to accept this and I don’t know if I’m being petty thinking about money this way when this is OUR child yet it’s all my savings to be able to support that child.

Abandoned

I grew up with a kinda distant mom and when I met my husband, his mom was such a warm "mommy" type of mom. She was a SAHM for her 3 kids and did all the mom things etc. She is from another country and over the years we have paid her rent back home and supported her as she didn't have a job and has lupus. When I was pregnant, she was so excited because it's her first grandchild. She said she wanted to live with us full time and help with the baby which was a dream come true for me. I did all her paperwork and got her her greencard and got her a job with my mom and got her health insurance etc. Long story short, I SET HER UP WITH A DREAM LIFE. I have always supported her emotionally and anything she needed, I would help her get. If she wanted to plan for her future or had a certain goal, I would create budgets for her or help her plan so she could reach her goals.

After i had the baby and our night nurse was done and we were really relying on her so I could go back to work, Little by little she became complacent and distant and would fight with my husband (which in her defense, he can be grumpy and roll his eyes and do that kind of super annoying semi disrespectful stuff). She would threaten to leave which was so stressful for me.

I would cry to her and explain that I was the breadwinner and I HAD TO work so that our mortgage could get paid and that we couldn't afford childcare and I showed her the numbers etc. I also tried to explain that she couldn't afford to live on her own here. (She has never lived on her own and really doesn't understand what is needed for her to do that or what I need to do to support our family and household. She would agree to stay and then it would start all over again a week or so later.

One day, I came home from work and she was gone, she had secretly found and rented a room and left (without any of her things and then made my husband pack her stuff and bring it to her)... I had 2 days to try and find childcare. I couldn't cover 2 of my evenings at work for the first week and I ended up getting fired because "I couldn't do my job without reliable childcare." Because I lost my job, I lost the HELOC i was just approved for so we could expand my son's tiny bedroom and create our forever home. My whole life has been completely upended and there is no getting it back.

She hasn't spoken to me in months. She keeps asking my husband to see my son and I just can't do it. I'm so deeply hurt. I can't do it.

Am I wrong here?

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Remote work??

Where does everyone find work from home jobs?? I’ve been job hunting on indeed but can’t find anything. I want to stay home with my LO but I also wanna help my partner with the bills. He’s been a huge support since I had to leave my job when I was pregnant. But daycare is kinda out of the question for me. So how do you get a remote job with just a high school diploma?