When does it get easier?

I'm sorry you are going through this. I know exactly how you feel. Been doing it for years and hasn't gotten easier. For me I think just not knowing what's going on or if she's okay bothers me the most, but also just not having that family unit. Do you have any support or friends you can reach out to when little one is away?

I really love it when my kid goes to her dad’s because I get time to myself. I feel like it makes me a better mum too. My daughter is 3.5 now, I think I only really struggled for the first year, but had no issues after that. I imagine that’s because it coincided with my return to work and uni giving me another focus.

My eldest is now 12 and I left her dad when she was 3.. it was so hard to begin with and I felt like a part of me was missing but I eventually grew to love my time apart, using it to rest and reset and filled my time with things I enjoy.
I went bsck to education and spent years focusing on that which really helped keep my mind busy knowing I was bettering myself for our future. I did find that I was a better parent for having the breaks too.
I now have a nearly 2 year old and am experiencing it all again, just cos I got used to it before - I still took time to get used to it again. I think I see now that as the child is older it gets easier as theyre more independent and can speak for themselves I know their needs will be met more so I worry less. 🤷🏽‍♀️
So my only advice is, you are more than 'mum' and as much as guilt is crazy, you are allowed to be you too so channel that time into yourself 🙂

I have no idea when it gets easier but I just wanted to let you know I am exactly the same. My son has been with his dad since Sunday and I’ve missed him so much, I know deep down that I need this break but it doesn’t help the fact that I really miss him too.