Returning to work

Help!!!! FTM here, LO is 3 months and is a major velcro baby with bad reflux who really struggles to be put down for any amount of time.
I'm 37 and now rethinking life. I never thought I would feel like this, but I just so badly want to be a SAHM for at least the first year or two. I have such bad anxiety about sending my kiddo to daycare (we have an in home daycare provider lined up for when my maternity leave ends in a few weeks). I also really thought I would miss my job (I loved my job so much before my LO was born). We also bought a new house as our old one was so small and we wanted something he could grow into with our LO. Now I'm hating the fact that we absolutely need two incomes to pay our bills (we did before the move, but the mortgage increase really solidified that need). I just hate the idea of going back to work so badly now that it almost makes me physically sick. I have no idea how to try to make up enough income at home part-time to try to make it work to stay home, and transitioning to part-time/reducing hours is not an option at my current job.

I need advice - how do I live with the guilt of sending my velcro baby to daycare where he won't get the attention he needs/wants, or that I so badly wish I could keep giving him? I know this feeling will probably change later, and I'll eventually enjoy being back at work, but I just can't imagine leaving my LO every day right now 😭 I need advice on how to cope with all of this!

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Sugar free babies

Just out of interest, as I feel like In the minority among everyone I know (in fact I can safely say I’m the only one I know!) who isn’t giving my baby foods containing sugar and don’t plan on ever doing so until he’s at least way over 2. Is anyone with me? No judgement btw it’s just my personal stance

I need to vent cus I think I’m going to crash out 😂

My husband and I been together for 5 years , married for 1 1/2. When we first got together I went with him to a quince ( his cousins ) that’s where I met everyone ( his whole family etc ) . I got a long with his cousins.. this one girl that I assumed was his cousin came up to me complementing me whatever. Ig his cousins seen that n told me that my husband has something with her years ago and I was in shock because I’m like umm how come he didn’t tell me?? I told him about it and he told me that yes they did things ( sexually) but it was never nothing outside of that. I had my questions and he answered. Fast forward to now! She comes around because her parents are close to my in laws . I keep it respectful but I don’t go beyond that. She came to our baby shower which whatever but wtf?? I feel like she keeps it respectful too but she throws things at me. Like current words she says are specifically for me.. whatever I let it go. Anyways yesterday people came over to the house because there was a soccer game on . Her parents came but not her. It’s night and my husband and I are outside with her parents and my in laws. We are just talking giggling.. mind you his dad is drunk n he’s so dumb when he’s drunk. He was talking about something and he told her parents “ everyone knows my son had something good with your daughter , it ended and now he’s with Angelica , which is good cus she’s a good person “ and I’m like huh?? Something good? So I’m just there but I am heated and confused. I look at my husband in a weird way n he just puts his head down and I go inside. He follows me.. but I just told him I needed space. Am I wrong? Am I over exaggerating. I know that they did something sexual YEARS ago. But I asked him if they ever dated , went out with eachother or if he liked her and he told me no that they barely talked and that he fucked her a couple times. That it was nothing outside of that. He told me when I first found out when I had my questions. So he lied to me. Because obviously it was something if his parents knew about it.. I’m upset because why didn’t he tell me? Why did he lie about it?? Why did his dad do that ? I feel dumb because she comes to all our parties and talks to him n everything. This morning he brought it up and told me that it shouldn’t bother me because it was years ago. I’m upset. So upset. To the point where I’m going to give him the same energy back. Someone help

Pausing potty training.

I am considering taking a break from potty training.
My son has chronic constipation and I think that needs to be fully resolved before we continue. We started training him 3 months ago and he's still having multiple accidents a day. It is causing a lot of stress. However, my worry is this will make things worse in the long run as he will get confused.
Just wondering if anyone else has taken a pause in potty training and why? Did it work out in the long run? Do you regret it or was it the right choice?

Tracker for child

There was a serious safeguarding incident at my childs school last week involving a 5 year old being taken by an adult without the parents awareness or consent.

My child has a school trip coming up and I'm really anxious about it. I was anxious before but now I really don't want my child going!

Can anyone recommend a tracker/gps type thing? I have android

What to do on a 8 hr bus journey

So I’m travelling alone for 8 hrs by bus. I have no idea what to do! I’m usually either working or looking after the kids or the house, I don’t know how I’m going to fill 8 yrs and my hobbies (what even is that) are dance and sewing so not quite bus appropriate. I also don’t read much, last time I read was about 5 yrs ago.

Please give me some clever ideas so I don’t die of boredom.

Feeling like a terrible wife

My husband apparently hurt his leg while at work. He has been limping around for a few days. Now he says he can’t hardly move it. I’m feeling pretty upset because I can’t tell if it truly is as bad as he says or he is just using it as an excuse. I have taken care of the kids, the meals, the cleaning, all of it while he said I could take it easy and relax. All day he has been sleeping and not really doing much of anything. I’m frustrated because when I am sick or in pain I still have to take care of the kids and cook/clean but it seems like he just gets to do nothing. Am I being a bad wife?