Not enjoying my kids at all

I don't think your doing anything wrong. Maybe you have post partum depression, lack of enjoyment? Maybe your just overburdened with all the parenting and not enough support. I think you need a bit of me time and maybe one and one time with each child. Take them out on a special treat like ask them what they want to do? Train ride and cafe or swim? Your not expected to enjoy every minute, but maybe appreciate how short life is and how they grow up so quickly?

I can’t seem to do it. I try so so hard but every interaction is awful. I’m just wishing the time away and wanting them to get a bit older so they’re nicer to be around but I know I’ll be sad when they’re older and want nothing to do with me anymore. My 2 year old won’t let me give my 5 year old any attention sadly, he needs every ounce of me and it’s draining and my poor daughter suffers because of it. My husband is too busy to be helping out much, he has a business to run :(

I think that's it your doing the majority of the work and therefore you can't give them the attention. All kids really want is just attention.

Definitely, the attention drains me more than words can explain. Especially as my kids need me from 6:15am AS SOON AS I WAKE UP. Until 8pm not long before I go to bed. I have such little time to think without being interrupted and I don’t even attempt trying to have a conversation with another adult

They can sense your attitude/ feelings. Trust me! Anger sadness depression all rubs off on how they act!!! They need engagement love , entertainment. I feel like you should likely seek help...maybe therapy. Could could Jane ppd...talk to a dr possibly your low in VIT D iron or something else effecting your mood! First fix you then the kids will adjust once mom's happy.

I think you should get your tubes tied and get professional help I think that would really help with your mental health and will be fair to your children. They can feel our emotions.

I think it’s normal to feel overwhelmed. These days are hard and I don’t know that it’s realistic to enjoy EVERY moment.

Now, I’m gonna say something…and I’m gonna say it with love. Boundaries. You listed a whole lot of negative things about your children’s actions and it sounds like some of these things-not all-could be mitigated with some boundaries. How do you respond when they argue, say they are bored, wave toilet brushes around the room?

Small things like them being tired or hungry-that’s kid stuff. Are you able to have a snack ready before they get home from school? I’ve implemented a snack cart and that’s been a big help.

As far as your mood changing and not having a single day of joy-I would definitely recommend counseling. You may be experiencing some depression.