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Cheat while expecting

Cheated on while pregnant (probably more of a vent then anything) - part 2

He had punched the wall (thankfully a brick house a. Because it would have hurt and b. Because it didn't leave a hole) and then followed me into the kitchen a while later where I was preparing bubs bottle. He simple asked if he would still be able to see his daughter.. and I told him that despite the fact that I didn't trust him anymore I was willing to give us another go because I still loved him, but he had to choose because he couldn't have the both of us. He took maybe 30 seconds to think about it and said he chose me, and he chose us to be a family..

We seemed to be doing well. Upon exploring further into his phone a few days later I discovered they had started talking the first week I was on maternity leave. I genuinely thought he was going to end it with her but he kept being cagey and distant and it took him another week to actually end it and by then I had moved out because I was tired of him leading me on and I told him he needed to take a break from the both of us to work out what he wanted...

On the upside his mum was witness to all this and despite the fact it took a breakup and a baby... she finally likes me 😂

Since the whole ordeal we have tried to get back together and we seemed to be doing well, I found myself trusting him a bit again after a while but he started acting distant and like he was avoiding having back at OUR house and keeping me from OUR friends so I broke things off with him because he wouldn't tell me what was wrong and then he admitted he didn't believe me that I said I was going to move home and we could really give the relationship another go and he felt like it was a waste of time, despite the fact he knew better then that and that he could trust me.

Am I completely hopeless for still wanting to give things a go with him.. or should I cut my loses and try and move on... We are in such a weird place right now, like he doesn't want a relationship with me, yet he acts like we are in one (kissing, hugging, the occasional sex, going out on dates, actively trying to be a dad when we visit) but won't sleep in the same bed as me or tell me that he wants a relationship.. except for one very vague message saying "I'm not saying anything but I can't love you like I want to when your not with me" in regards to me asking whether he's ever going to want a relationship with me again and I gave him a date that I'm moving back home (which is now in a matter of days)... To which I've had to buy myself my own bed to be able to do..