I don’t want to be a mom or a partner

I don’t think anything is wrong with you. You’re not alone in this. I have my days as well

Girl it’s okay. I’m the same. I couldn’t imagine being with anyone else, I love my man, and my little baby boy, wouldn’t change it for the world! But damn sometimes I do wish I could life a different life. Don’t be hard on yourself xx

Yeah but like I wanna be with other men. Is that love ? She’s 4 months old I hardly do anything with her. I have to have a shot or two in me to do shit with her and keep it in the back of my mind that people think I’m not around and avoid my house. When I’m home I like binge eat out of depression

Like I don’t think I have my “days” I love her I really do but this is constant

Hey, please seek professional help or try to find a support system, try to talk to your friends and family about it. I went through the same thing and I understand the way you feel. It's okay but you need help from the outside before it gets worse, fighting alone and especially PP is beyond difficult. You're not alone in this, don't feel guilty about the way you are rn: you love your child, you don't want to hurt them and you're a good mom, you just need help.

There's nothing wrong with having regrets, everyone goes through phase like this in life so you're not weird or anything, don't be harsh on yourself. Abt binge eating: it's an unhealthy coping mechanism, it's the way you deal with stress. Try to do research on how to cope with stress in healthy ways. What helped me is that I just went outside with my baby and my husband, it doesn't have to be something fancy: a walk where you get to leave your 4 walls is very good for mental health and it changes your perspective a little bit. But once again, it's important to find a professional who'll help you through this and may prescribe meds to stabilize the chemical balance in your brain if that's the case.

I tried psychiatric therapy all that nothing really did me justice.. I just don’t wanna be a mom or a partner I wanna be alone

Personally, I can relate to this 100%. And it's a horrible feeling knowing that you have something you should be feeling happy and grateful for but unfortunately, that's not the case. Seeking help is definitely something you should do but don't beat yourself up for it either. I have talked to a therapist about the same feeling and it has prompted me to start a healing journey and trying understand what I really want while adjusting to the changes in my life.

So like should I go to the ER am I crazy ?

No lol but I do think you should figure out what's making you feel the way you do because there's a reason you're feeling like this.

He HAS TO BE your biggest support system. It's imperative. Do whatever makes you feel good but with moderation. I think what you are feeling is normal because I've felt the same way. I loved the life I had before my child. But now things have changed and what's important is that I wouldn't change being the mother to my child for anything. Stay strong momma it WILL get easier with time.

If you're doing it alone, Like no family around, nor friends 💯 percent. It will be freaking hard, so you need break for sure. Some time to yourself "me time" and lots of support. Just give it time, give it a full year to reconsider hard decisions like divorce or leaving 🤔

I have support I have it all. I just don’t want it idk what’s wrong or if it’s wrong I think she’d be better off without me for a little while

My baby is 4 months old. Maybe you can call me megan ?????

I've been feeling like this a lot. I'm told it's ppd. I'd say it's a horrid lack of support. But no one has a solution. I agree with people saying therapy. But more in the lines of you need someone to help you figure out what you actually need and want. When you want a different life that badly, there are reasons and there have to be ways to get what you really want and need. Our brains and bodies change drastically throughout pregnancy and postpartum. There are irreversible changes happening. That WILL reflect on your relationships. It can be a nuke to a life/family unit. There is no old life anymore. But you have to choose the new one. Good luck

It’s not abnormal but it also isn’t healthy. Have you looked into a therapist maybe? Did you get help with your PPD? Being a mom is tough, especially going through that. Almost all of us have been there at least a time or two. :)