Heartbroken đź’”

I left my narcissistic husband a month ago with our son. He's been trying the entire time to get me to come home and say he's changed and will change. But he would spiral back and go right back to the abusive behavior towards me. He's finally accepted that I'm done and we need to be divorced. But I am still so heartbroken. I know what I'm doing is right but why does this have to be so hard? Seeing him today when he came to get our son broke me all over again. I miss him and just want to hug him and tell him I'm sorry. Will this ever get easier? Will the guilt of leaving ever stop?

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Girl im in the same boat.. it does but its harder when your with a narcisstic person.. girl get on a dating app you dont have to date yet but talk with guys learn your worth

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Don’t go back, you left for a reason. Your child will have less trauma if you part ways.

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Hey mama đź’—
I know its hard
In my case My now narcissistic ex bf left me when i was 7 months pregnant…

I just gave birth 5 days ago to my beautifull daughter Noemi đź’ž

and I feel soooooo gratefull that he dumped me cause i wouldnt be able to do it my self
I was so manipulated that I would endure everything just to be with him and have a “happy family” when all he did maked my life miserable, he pushed me when I was 4 months and I was so messed up that he made me believe that its was my fault

Feeling fade away eventually, and it will hurt less, the dynamic with a narcissistic will never and i mean NEVER make you trully happy because everything is about them and often they invalidate your feelings and try to alter your reality to make you go insane its Ugh… 🤦‍♀️

and for your son dont feel guilty
as a new mom who chose to not even tell the bd that her daughter is born you are choosing your well being and happiness and that is

✨P R I C E L E S S ✨

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It's the trauma bond and needs to be broken.

He won't change and proven that you are right in the past.

Every day and each time will get better. You just gotta hold your ground.

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Is he trying to make you feel guilty or are you just feeling guilty? I left my narcissist ex for myself and for my daughter because it was a very toxic relationship and I didn't want my daughter growing up thinking that was OK and also I was so depressed I wanted to be a better, happier mother for my daughter so that's what I say to myself when my ex tries to guilt trip me

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Narcissists just want to have the upper hand, that is why he guilt trips you to come back, to get his will done. Be careful! I endured promises of a change, even oaths for five years, our whole marriage, even had a child with him midways, because I felt so guilty to be the bad one to say goodbye. He manipulated me to get to marry him with lies and making me feel unique for 15 years before our marriage, so I trusted that the wrongdoings in our marriage will get better. When I left, I started therapy and my psy told me narcissists can say and do everything for a very long time to get their will done, with no empathy for the others, it is typical of them to use people and then feel proud of themselves for succeeding in manipulating the “stupid one”, as they consider us. To this day, I still cannot find my true self, I am broken and feel guilty the whole time, which is his doing. Don’t let him do that girl, we should stand our ground! You and your son deserve better!

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