Intrusive thoughts- plz help!

You need talk therapy sweetheart. If you don't want meds, you need counseling. Peanut isn't going to solve this, but I highly highly suggest reaching out to a talk therapist and not a psychiatrist, as psychiatrists do medication management and rarely do talk therapy.

I just want you to know I understand. I have a protective order against my son's father. I am due in April with a baby that I didn't consent to conceiving. The pregnancy was unplanned and unwanted but I too was pressured into keeping it. I have come to terms with it. This is my second child and I am alone. I have very little help at all and I am going to be struggling a lot. You are not alone.

Please speak to someone, a professional, a friend. Thank you for sharing, and thank you for loving your son. I hope you get what you need. ❤️❤️❤️

You’re so strong for enduring everything you’ve been through and to be still here wanting better for yourself and LO. I also admire your vulnerability. It takes a lot to put yourself out there.

As far as suggestions, I think you should seek God for his guidance and possibly ask someone you trust to continuously pray for you. You can also look into somatic therapy. It could help you release some of the stored trauma that may be holding you back.

I can’t begin to understand what you are going through but it sounds like your good intentions are there I also think therapy could be extremely helpful sometimes unloading that pain onto someone else can easy your feelings tremendously. It sounds like you want to be present in your LO life so just keep working towards that but if it comes down to it safe is best for LO. Hoping nothing but the best for you!

Please go to a therapist or psychiatrist, my niece went thru thru the "thoughts" situation herself and she spoke with a therapist and it helped her tremendously! I'll never praying for you 🙏🏻🩵🩷🩵

I know you say you don’t want medication, but taking Zoloft has been so incredible for my mental health. I’m such a better mom now since starting it. I’ve always been against taking meds but so glad I started at 15 months. I also see a therapist individually and go to couples counseling every week. From what you share, it seems like you could have a lot of Unhealed trauma. You’re a good mom- bad moms don’t really wonder if they’re a bad mom. Rooting for you

tysm, i my struggle is having already been robbed out of a good childhood- I looked forward to my plans for the future. Which was also robbed by the same thief.

@Alexis I’ve never geared of somatic therapy- that sounds like something I could look into! Thanks so much for sharing!

❤ oh mama so sorry for what you're going through. I also recommend therapy. They can give you some great tools. A great tool you could implement immediately is the personal crazy index. https://medium.com/transformations/keep-your-sanity-with-the-personal-craziness-index-333b5b9f96be

It's a good warning system for when you are headed to a less stable place.

❤ Never be afraid to ask for help. And if you need to set baby in a safe place (like their crib) for 5 mins while you step away that's okay. They will be okay crying for a few minutes.