Wedding

I feel like such a misery guts saying this but I literally cannot be bothered with a big wedding? Ive ALWAYS had my dream wedding planned but now I have my LO my ideas about spending money and energy on things has completely shifted. My LO is 9 and a half months and its fair to say my mental healths been up and down since having him. I cant tell if my reason for not wanting this big wedding is my new personality or a little bit of postpartum depression/fatigue… We have been engaged over a year now and I just want to go to a registry with my partner, baby and our parents and then jet off on holiday! I cant bare the thought of spending a house deposit on a day (no matter how much fun it might be/ how expected it is). I think another big thing is since having my LO I dont feel as included with friends and family as i have in the past. I dont want to upset family and friends and I can tell my partner feels a little confused by how i view the day. I do think as soon as we look at costs its clearer to him why I cant see the point in spending so much money. I also just hear/see people stressing about their wedding days which really puts me off! I guess what im asking is - do I need to wait it out and see how i feel in a year or do I embrace these feelings and get things booked in (jan 2027 wedding)? what were your experiences with getting married? Thank you so much in advance.