Postpartum rage

I’m really really struggling right now I have a nearly 7 month old and 2 year old I’m getting so angry at my baby she never sleeps it takes hours to get her to sleep she’s up half the night I’m so sleep deprived and stressed I’ve tried talking to my partner but he makes it a competition over who’s more tired because he works when I’ve worked the same job pregnant i don’t know what to do I’m afraid I’m going to hurt my babies I love them with my whole heart I’m sat here in tears typing this out no matter who I try talk to eg my mum she’s like I’ve had kids I know what it’s like when I try to express how I’m feeling inside I feel like they need to be taken away from me and they’d have a better life😭😭

Read more on Peanut

The views expressed in community are solely the opinions of participants, and do not reflect those of Peanut.

Learn more about our guidelines.
Add a comment
Avatar

Hey where abouts are you in the UK? I would love to help you out. Do you have any other family support? Does your 2 year old go to nursery?

Avatar

I feel you, I am getting angry at my toddler, she is hyper active and always needs me to be around, I can't do anything, she will be between my legs...is so hard to keep place clean to cook...my toddler always put place upside down...baby is just 7 weeks, not so demanding now compare to 7 month...but it is extremely hard with no village....I totally feel you xx

Avatar

I’m afraid to reach out to my health visitor I don’t want to loose my babies all I want it for my partner and family to be more supportive and not try and one up me all the time my 2 year old goes to nursery two times a week half days so it isn’t much time and my 7 month old is just so clingy I don’t know what to do x

Avatar

Have you spoken to the perinatal health team?

Avatar

Hey I’m so sorry to hear that your going through that I hear you it must be hard with 2 very young children I agree you do need support maybe a therapist you sound like your on the edge you won’t lose your babies please get support mama you come first if ur not ok u won’t be able to look after your children sending u hugs and prayers please get help xx

Avatar

I still get PP rage and my baby is almost 10 months!

Avatar

the best thing you can do is be honest and reach out for help and exactly why. i live in sussex and we have an nhs service called health in mind which is a free counselling service that you can refer yourself to. i’ve suffered mentally since first diagnosed at 12, and have used them frequently over the years. one of the times i used them was when my son was 1 and a half/2 and i had been really struggling mentally, i hadn’t reached out for help yet i just struggled for weeks, then i was doing my sons nappy and i can’t remember what happened whether he was screaming or being difficult etc idk id struggled with him for a while, but i actually had it in my mind to shake him. i didnt, id never hurt him, but for a split second that was in my brain and i immediately placed my son on the floor and put in a referral for health in mind, and on the referral there was a notes box and i told them my thought i had that pushed me to self refer. they were so supportive and understanding xx

Avatar

I have the same problem with my toddler and baby, my health visitor is lovely and has referred me to help at home where they send out a volunteer to come and help at your house a couple of times a week. They phone you to find out what you need and then they allocate someone who fits the bill e.g I need someone who will sit on the floor with my toddler and teach him to things. Might be worth while investigating.
I was honest with my health visitor and explained the rage I feel and she said its very common and it will get better. It’s better to be honest a s all they want to do is help you and your family be happy. X

Read more on Peanut

Trending

in our community

Wdy think of this for a toddler to learn word construction?

I'm open to anything else to start teaching him to read and write. He's 3!

Avatar

2

12

Do men really enjoy fellatio?

Been together more than 10 years, but it's been a while since he even seemed remotely interested in me getting on my knees, or vice versa so to speak. I think it was once last year. Must be something I am doing wrong 🤔. Generally everything else in that department is great and we have two young kids with no extra support, so it's quite surprising we can't keep our hands off each other but may need to try new things. It's basically 2 positions each time with some foreplay.

Avatar

6

I think Motherhood has made me more bitter than I realized…

This is such a ramble but I don’t know where else to put it all.

I’m four months in and I don’t really have hobbies right now. I don’t do anything for myself except maybe doomscrolling or listening to a podcast while I breastfeed my baby. I used to craft and have game nights with friends. Activities that usually are at least 2 hour stretches. Now if I have an hour free my mind immediately goes to baby, or doing something in the house for baby.

And I thought I didn’t mind. Like I knew postpartum could be very mentally consuming. But I think it’s altering how I view people around me and it’s prodding at my relationship with my husband.

He spends most of his time making food for us, looking after our dogs, playing with the baby, ect. But he still has time for his hobby. Spends maybe an hour a night on it. Even adapted to using a bot for shopping for his hobby after a certain incident where we had to have a heart to heart after he left me home alone with the baby for hours during a busy workday (I work from home) to shop for his hobby.

And yet there’s like this little green eyed monster in me that rages every time I know he’s running off to start up the bot. Even though I’m the reason he does it this way.

We took a family trip last weekend to see his best friend and their kids and let them meet the baby. He brought the laptop. He’s always brought a laptop on trips and it’s never been a problem to me before. But one night we both woke up while the baby was still asleep, and he wandered out of the room. I tried to fall back asleep but couldn’t. So I went to the kitchen to try having something warm to drink to settle me. And he was there at the table running the bot from his laptop. I flipped out at him. But there really wasn’t reason to. It’s not like I needed help with the baby and he was ignoring me. He wasn’t avoiding our friends. He was just awake and unable to sleep and found something to do with his time. Yet my snap reaction was “why the hell would you do this on a family trip?”

I don’t know what it is. Maybe it’s the less complete sleep from baby’s middle of the night feed? My brain being just consumed by baby? Maybe I’m not as over that shopping incident as I thought? But I’m just so annoyed at his hobby right now. The green eyed monster thinks “you could be using that time differently” but realistically to do what exactly??? Stare at our baby in the dark???

I spent probably an hour apologizing to him after I snapped. And he’s of course hurt and frustrated because I said some very mean things in the moment.

I don’t want to be this jealous, angry person. But I also don’t know how to find time for myself in this right now outside of basic hygiene. It’s like I’ve forgotten how to be myself, even if just for an hour.

Maybe I need a therapist.

Avatar

4

7

Naps

How is everyone doing for naps?

Little one is 9 months old and will have 2 half hour naps and one solid 1 hour - 2 hour nap a day

Then settles for night around 9pm. Wakes for a feed around 3:30 then sleeps until 6-7

Avatar

3

Vaccination advice

I’m really looking for advice and opinions on vaccines for my baby. I’m not against getting them but also just don’t feel like I know enough about them to make a decision just yet as I’ve had people say to me they don’t agree with them and they can cause issues etc… so I just want as much info as possible. What are everyone’s thoughts and experiences of vaccinating your child? I’m just interested to see everybody’s views (no judgement as I just want to know I’m doing the right thing) thank you x

Avatar

12

Vanilla extract

Has anyone used alcohol free vanilla in their babies formal to help them drink?
I’m 100% sure my baby refuses her bottles as she doesn’t like the taste of it!

Just anxious to try it, don’t want her to get used to it and then refuse bottles again after two weeks of using (correct me if I’m wrong but I’ve read you use it for 2 weeks max)

TIA 🙂

Avatar

16

Read more on Peanut