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Maybe I’m the problem

I’m so tired of being lonely. I’m so tired of spending all day at home doing nothing but parenting, cleaning, and working. Just to have a toddler who’s toddlering and doesn’t listen, a dirty house, and no money. My husband doesn’t understand how it feels to feel trapped in your own home and your own life cause he’s content with never going out and spending all his free time at home but I can’t take it anymore. Being 29w pregnant and hormonal isn’t helping either. I wonder if it’d be different if I had a friend to come and spend time with me but I don’t. I have “friends” who I haven’t seen since I was in my first trimester, and I have a friend who’s like a sister but she lives out of state and has her own life and issues going on to worry about reaching out everyday. I feel so alone. I try to reach out with little to no response from anyone and trying to talk to new people is hard cause I feel like no matter how much I try and I put myself out there to meet new people it doesn’t go further than literally one or two messages before I’m ghosted. Is it me? Am I not as friendly as I think I am? Am I that boring? Am I doing something wrong? I know I can’t go do fun stuff all the time cause money isn’t a luxury I have to spend outside of food bills but I thought I was at least decent company to have. What’s so wrong with me that the universe thinks I need to be and feel so alone!? I don’t understand.