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Bit of a rant

My partner hasn’t been the greatest since our baby came he was good the first 2 weeks but after that I’ve done everything he’s looked after her twice for an hour each time but other than that and a couple of nappy changes I do everything.
We’ve just had an argument because he says I spend too much money on our daughter. I bought her the next size up in clothes one month and it was around £100 I personally didn’t think that was too much but he does. I bought her some sensory bits and stuff and he says this month we absolutely have to tighten up on things and only buy essentials I said fine and he’s made an argument out of it. Our daughter is 5 months old.
He spends £500+ on beer a month he drinks at home every night and he goes to the pub every week to play pool plus a few other times during the month. I don’t do anything unless it’s a free baby class. His excuse for drinking is that he’s been told by a professional that if he quits drinking he could have seizures but he won’t even cut down and I can guarantee he will still go to pool every week this month even though he’s told me we need to only buy essentials and be strict. I’m honestly at a loss of what to do. I don’t want to be with him anymore he doesn’t want to change for us and he won’t he’s drunk every single night and does nothing around the house or for our baby or me. I can’t leave him I need him for money reasons I just couldn’t afford anything without his wage.
We move house in a couple of months and I just wish I had the courage to just leave him but I can’t.
Not much else to say and this is just really a rant. I’m just so sad at the minute and needed to get it out.