Guys what do I even do

I’ve realised every time I talk to my partner who I have two kids with he always shouts and I always thought maybe I’m the one who makes him to angry but these few weeks I’ve been doing it different I haven’t been arguing back and I’ve realised , even if I talk calm to him everything I say makes him so angry.
Today I told him that I don’t like the state his left my garden in as we had workers to do my garden but they basically scammed us took material money and blocked us. It’s been like 6 months we left the garden as it’s been cold, But my partner has made the garden worse he doesn’t look after it he goes to the back of the garden we have a shed to smoke weed. And my garden is quite big so I didn’t realise how messy his left it as I can’t see so far down.
So today it was hot I decided to go in the garden and I asked him why he doesn’t respect my house and just clean the garden I’ve got ocd and seeing the state he left the shed in made me so upset, instead of saying no problem I’ll sort it out later or tomorrow to make me feel better he starts screaming say how it’s my fault, yes it’s your fault because your making it worse anyways whilst he was shouting I just walked back inside as his so loud and I hate the fact that his shouting in the garden and people can hear.
Then today we went out to London we went to a few casinos then to like a karioke night and he just kept shouting stuff like your shit to the person singing, oh Noo don’t sing that, put Rihanna on, let me singggg and just loads of other random stuff and I honestly got so embarrassing i told him many times to stop it as it’s embarrassing and it’s not nice and I said to him I’ll just leave Then some women went to sing and as she started singing she was like lifting up her legs and stroking it 😂😂 and looking at us and I said to him it’s because you kept screaming now she’s literally looking into his soul whilst trying to dance sexy so I literally walked out as he kept refusing because wtf is even happening .. then I asked him to book a uber as his abit drunk whilst we’re waiting for the uber his making comments about me how I’m never happy and stuff and I’m thinking how can I be happy this always happens every time I go out with him I can’t relax he literally starts on people, how’s he meant to keep me safe as a man if he starts on people and some man fell over and he said u fat prick get up ?
So I went to check up on the man and he was so sweet, I honestly
don’t understand how you can be so mean.
So anyways after uber came, we sat in the uber he saw a women and I’ve never seen him do this but he literally started looking at her up and down then I said to him what you looking at and he goes oh those boys are trying it on those girls? I’m thinking why does it concern you .
So I stayed quite the whole journey we just got to my mums got into bed like and I said to him you’ve actually been really horrible today he literally just said oh fuck of and I said excuse me and he was like yes shut up 😂😂 saying oh
you spent my money in the casino and now on top of this you want to talk to me like this then he got up walked out the room slammed the door and said fuck this shit? I’m honestly so confused ? Like wtf is going on I dnt actually understand, how can you be so angry all the times and the bitch fits are honestly so off putting like your a grown arse man ? . I’m kind of like fed up of it . This is just today what happened but he does things like this everydayyyyy he just wants to argue and his family are the same like him horrible!
What do I even do? I don’t want a man like this but i love him and ill find it so hard to cope and ive got two kids with him i dnt have family close to me only his family .
Im only 27 his 35.
Im honestly so stuck as i dont want to live like this anymore.

Sorry the picture is what I moaned about it’s really not that easy to just clean this? why leave it to get to this? This is just the bins the whole garden is a state!!!

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Kissing my baby

Am i being dramatic?

My mother is obsessed with my 11 week old boy, understandably as he is the first grandchild.
She does however get regular coldsores, so i have asked her nicely not to kiss my baby’s face or hands (as he puts them in his mouth).

She keeps ignoring me, my brother calls her out and tells her not to when i have my back turned and it drives me crazy. When i call her out, she reacts by telling me i don’t clean my hands enough when handling my baby anyway.

How do i get through to her, it’s driving me crazy that she doesn’t respect my boundaries and it ends in an explosive argument where she tells me not to bother visiting. As if I don’t want to see the rest of my family.

Am i being dramatic, is it still a risk at almost 3 months old?

Am I just being overly sensitive?

So my partner (25) and I (20) have 2 kids together. I'm a SAHM. He works really hard for our family & I really appreciate it so much.
But when he gets home he has a bath, then sits outside and smokes while playing Call of Duty until it's the kids bedtime(+/- 2hrs). I almost never spend time with him. And the weekends it's the same except some days he will be out visiting or up and down doing favors for other people.
I have asked him multiple times to go on a date or even just spend an hour together, but it never happens because he always forgets.
Then when we have gone out it's always too boring for him and we end up spending the 'date' with some of his friends, the kids or his sister like Valentines this year...
I feel really neglected and I get so angry with him, but he really shows up dispute this... am I being too dramatic?

Does any of your partner tell you to call places?

I have phone phobia(seriously) I hate when my phone rings so I always put it on silent and dnd mode. The only person I let it ring is my husband and kiddos school contacts.
Anyways, so my husband always tells me to call the place when we need to order food or get something fixed. Like I get anxiety attacks as soon as he says “can you call…” like why is he doing this?!

Yesterday we were on the phone while he was driving home and he told me to call the sushi place so he can just pick it up otw and I didn’t answer then after few mins he said did you call them already?? And I’m like in my head, I’m on the phone with you how can I call?????? And I didn’t answer him because I got annoyed and he yelled babe!!!! And I just hung up and made the order. I mean it’s my fault for ignoring him but like I got annoyed.

Today he’s at hair salon(in the plaza) and our son usually goes first then him, he texts me saying order chicken to go so he can pick it up as soon as they’re done with haircuts. I was like wtf?! The chicken place is literally next door WHY CANT YOU GO AND ORDERRRRRR ughh pissing me off. So I said I don’t want but if you want order. Then he goes no I’m good. Omfgggggg

Why do some women think being a SAHM is bad ?

Recently I lost a friend on here because she would criticize me about being a SAHM and I get it yk. I do eventually want to find work and be able to have my own money and things like that, but I am only 22 and she was 26 and already had a house and car already- felt like we were in different situations. We basically fell out because she would cross boundaries and was eventually getting more judgmental and mean about her opinion. Because at first, I didn’t mind her having her own opinion but she started getting disrespectful eventually. So please ladies tell me what you all think?

TV vs 90s/00s TV

i’m so passionate about this subject i hate that tv isn’t how it used to be and i hate the changes that are happening
I think it’s such a shame that TV then used to be real TV real props/scenes rather than animated or cgi stuff,
it used to be calm slow paced and we were offered less of it because there was no such thing as streaming services back then
and now you’ve got Netflix Disney YouTube BBC iPlayer and you get given anything you want to watch, whenever, for however long u want, i just think it’s so sad because now my children they do watch this kind of stuff that’s fast paced and bright colours and music playing in the background and loads of things going on in one scene it’s just overstimulating there are not many shows that aren’t overstimulating and it’s so hard to avoid them even so

Does anyone feel this way?

My entire life I knew I only wanted one thing and that was to be a mom. But now that I’ve been a mom for 9 months old, I’m starting to think maybe that’s not what I was made for. I feel like I’m struggling. Everyone around me seems to have it so much easier with their babies, but for me, I’ve struggled since day one. I love my baby to death and wouldn’t trade him for anything in this world, but he’s such a high maintenance baby. We’ve always had trouble with feeding, sleeping, etc. I see other moms go out with their newborn and I just wish that could’ve been me. But instead I was just worried that my baby wouldn’t eat or sleep, or would just cry the entire time and I wouldn’t know how to soothe him. Now he’s 9 months old, we’ve gotten out a little bit more but it’s still rough, and I feel like I just struggle more than I should. Like maybe I just wasn’t meant to be a mom. I feel like motherhood in these first 9 months hasn’t been enjoyable like it should have been.