Literally heartbroken
If you take the time to read this, then thank you, so much.
Tonight I have cried my eyes out for over an hour, thinking why do I deserve my children.
As a family we sat down and had a meal, that I had spent 2 hours preparing and cooking - our 7 month old is doing BLW, he was gagging, my husband will continuously interfere by trying to put water in his mouth, I spoke and said it’s best not to do that, it’s a natural thing they need to learn. He disagreed, literally did not want to listen.
I am struggling so badly at the moment with a toddler who turn 2 last month and a 7 month old, a SAHM who has worked all her life. I’m do get cross sometimes as my toddler will push me, my baby will cry whatever I try to do to help him. I have done EVERY night feed and wake up, even after an emergency CS. And tonight, my husband said that I don’t contribute to pay towards anything, I am horrible to my kids, I tell them no, I don’t go to work… i literally do 2 x £100 monthly food shops in a month, look after kids 24/7 with no break, been potty training, buy their clothes, the nappies, the general care and dr appts, the tantrums.
We have our arguments. But tonight hurt me. Like a blunt knife stabbing me over and over again. I feel like I shouldn’t have been given the opportunity to be a mum, especially after 2 miscarriages (with my husband so he knows). I just want to run away. But I love my kids too much. I try my hardest, I really do. I’ve always suffered with mental health, emotions, etc, he knows that. My kids are my life and tonight I looked at them and thought they just deserve so much better than me. 😭😭
Please help - long read (sorry)
Hi all, looking for outside views on this as as much as family and friends are helpful, I would like to know what others think of this from their perspective and people who don’t know me/us/our situation.
I’ve been with my husband 4 years and we have a baby together.
During my pregnancy, things were tough, there was many arguments and it was a tough time.
Since we’ve had our baby, I just feel like he is doing hardly anything, everytime I mention it to him or raise it, he bites back.
For example, he has a prolapse disc so he says he’s in pain, therefore he can’t hold our baby for more than 5 minutes. He comes home from work, he needs to lay down and relax as he’s tired. Everytime he is playing with him, he says he needs to go to the toilet or do something and can I have our baby back. He’s never had him alone away from me, as in taken him out. He never just has him because he is his son, it’s constantly me asking him to have him so I can do something. He never offers for me to have some ‘me’ time. He says he is tired from work and when he comes home he wants to chill. He lays in most mornings when he hasn’t got work. I do everything for our baby, he never puts the effort in and takes control.
He says he’s tired and blames it on his prolapse disc. May I add he can game for hours on end in a C shaped position but as soon as it comes to being responsible for our baby, he is in pain.
What would you think about this? I understand he is in pain with his back but surely this isn’t fair or right?
Opinions please ..
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