I know I’m wrong but I can’t help it

When I met my boyfriend we never really were on the same page sexually, he was a virgin and has more traditional views on sex and I’m much more flexible, and experienced. For this reason we have a lot of disconnect in the bedroom. He likes very vanilla clean experiences meanwhile I’m into more intense experiences. Since being pregnant I am like a feral cat and I’m craving the kind of experiences that I prefer and I’ve explained this with him but he just doesn’t exactly get it. I find myself thinking about past experiences with other men and I knowwww it’s wrong. I love my man but like …. Sexually we are just so far apart and often times after our experiences I’m either dissatisfied or having to satisfy myself another time when he’s not around. I don’t know what to do 🥺.

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Sex Pest Husband

I don’t know if anyone else’s husband is similar. Mine can be overly full on with sex at times. To be fair, we haven’t been doing it as much for a while, between balancing a toddler, work and commutes etc, life’s exhausting. So he raised the issue and we said we’d work on it and then shortly after we started trying for a baby which happened straight fortunately, but then my sickness set in soon after which meant it died off again. But he gets in these moods, which I can tell he’s in by the moment I look at him because he just looks different in his eyes, the way he speaks etc he just acts differently and he usually says he “feels anxious or off” but I know it’s sexual and I immediately shut down because in the past (especially if he’d been drinking too) he’d want to have sex and then end up not being able to finish (which only happens in these moods) and he’d persist for hours which I’d obviously get over and stop because at that point it’s not even enjoyable but then he’d just keep trying. So now when I notice that mood, I don’t even engage in starting because I know what happens. Anyway, last night in bed (he came home from work in that strange mood) he started grabbing me (as always, never get affection unless he wants something) and I’d been quite sick so I said obviously it’s not the time and he reckons he “can’t tell when is” read the room man. Anyway, then like an hour later or so after I’d fallen asleep, I wake up to him masturbating and groaning right next to me. It just really pissed me off. I don’t know how to balance it. I get he has an overly high sex drive and mine is probably quite low but because of what things have always been like and me just wishing he’d be more normal with it, it almost makes me never want to have sex with him, which is obviously going to cause issues.

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Hey mom's i just trying to find a mom friend! I'm very shy and I suffer from anxiety and depression and it hard for me to meet people! I'm separated but not legally yet and just need a cool mom friend who is ok with me smoking weed and will take a shot with me!!😁