Sex became a task for me
Ever since I got pregnant until now, baby is 18 months old, I totally lost my sex drive. It’s become a task for me that I still have to fulfill at the end of the day. We probably do it like 2-3 times per week. My husband wants me on top and not only do I dislike doing it, I also just don’t have the strength for it anymore. Physically and mentally.
I feel sorry for him because he’s doing so much for the family but it just feels like a burden to me. Today I kind of snapped when he wanted me on top again and I told him how I’m doing this for him and that it’s a task for me and I’d rather just go to bed or watch tv. Of course he got turned off, sad, disappointed and feels unloved and unwanted.
I really don’t know what to do. We don’t have a village, it’s just us. We’re rocking this thing but it’s taking its toll on me.
I don’t want to ruin our marriage through this but I also can’t just fake it anymore.
What can I do to enjoy this more again?