Am I a bad mom for this?
Lately, my sex life with my partner is the best its ever been. I’ve been begging him for more, and honestly I kinda feel like a dog in heat. I’m craving it all day, its all I can think about, I just want him deep inside me at all times. He thinks its kinda funny that I’m like this all of a sudden but its driving me crazy! We’ve had some very primal sex recently and I think its unleashed something in me. But the part that I’m questioning, is being naughty while the kids are awake/around. For example, I’m walking around with a butt plug in and its just normal lunch time for us. Is this wrong to do? Should I only do it after theyre in bed? Does it make me a bad mom? On any normal day the kids probably see their dad grabbing/groping me in some form(hes a very handsy affectionate- loves ass/boob grabs on me) but they havent seen more than that. Part of me feels guilty but part of me wants to embrace the fact I finally feel good/confident sexually.
Thinking about separation
Since I was pregnant I started having second thoughts about my relationship with my partner. In my eyes he's changed, he wasn't there anymore for me, and I became anxious. I (well we) blamed it on the hormones, changes and all the financial and work stress. Well, now our kid is 15 months and I still having these worries, but somehow is even worse as I am more inclined now to just split up. I'm treating this on therapy, but my concern is about places I can refer to for help. I have a normal job, just getting paid a bit over minimum wage. We bought the house 2 years ago, so what is left on the mortgage is still a lot. We lived in a small village just outside Edinburgh, I have no friends or family here (I'm not from the UK), so I feel very lost and I don't know how to start this process on my own. I don't want to do anything impulsive, as I am still considering this step, that's why lawyers right now is not the first option as I would like to talk to someone who could help/guide women in this situation first.