Soft spot anxiety

I'm sure his soft spot is fine, but you sound miserable. Please tell your doctor you're experiencing so much anxiety so you can get help!

Mum anxiety it a whole different ball game and sometimes no matter how many words of calm or someone that's gone through it helps. As long as you aren't physically poking your fingers into baby's skull then it's OK to touch and rub their head. My baby boy has always loved a head rub and in the early days I was so worried about hurting him

I have thoughts like this along with god knows how many others. I have just been diagnosed with perinatal OCD. Apparently it is really common especially with people who had anxiety before. You get these intrusive thoughts of bad things potentially happening to your baby. For me it could be anything from, "his eye is gunky, it might be an infection and he will lose his sight or get sepsis" to "im going to fall over while holding him and crush him". Completely irrational or unlikely things.

Those thoughts become something I cant get out of my head and it can bring on panic attacks. If it is something you keep experiencing it may be worth talking to your doctor.

Have you talked with a mental health provider about your anxiety? This level is not normal, and it's not healthy for you, your relationship, or your child. You deserve to enjoy your life and your motherhood without this much stress, so I would strongly suggest seeking some professional help.

That being said, it takes a lot more than rubbing an infant's head to cause any damage to their soft spot. I've worked in pediatric medicine for over a decade, I promise, you're not going to hurt him by drying his hair.