Opinion
So, Ive brought up several times to my fiance that I’ve been in a relationship in my past that was unfaithful and was cheated on/had a lusting bf. There’s been several deep convos we’ve had about our past and just some things we fear. My biggest one is cheating and has been brought to his attention several times. He always reassures me, and obviously I trust him so much. Well, a few times I’ve talked about it I’ve noticed he kind of dissociates and I think it’s odd but don’t think much about it. He told me once that when him and his ex wife were divorcing and in the filing stage to it being official, he did mess around with someone during that. Anyways, I’ve asked multiple times if that’s been the only time or anything and he’s always said yes. Well, last night he had a drink and seemed to have the liquid courage maybe but he told me he had something to tell me and hasn’t been fully honest with me and while his wife was out doing stuff with others I guess, and they were going through a bad time, he got super drunk at a wedding and ended up sleeping with someone that night. While still married. He said she was doing the same thing and it didn’t justify his behavior and shouldn’t have done that and told me he’s been wanting to tell me this for MONTHS but just has been afraid to and couldn’t figure out the right timing but wanted to tell me before we got married. He’s worried I see him different, which I don’t. I’m so in love with him but I did express my concerns like hey, “if we ever go through a really bad time in our marriage or you accidentally get too drunk is that what you’re going to go out and do” considering I’ve been in the position of being cheated on. He pulled me closer and looked me in the eyes and said “I would never do this to you. That wasn’t me back then and I am so in love with you. That wasn’t who I was and I would never even think about that. You are the woman of my dreams” and I DO believe him. Seriously. But at the same time…. I’ve had a pit in my stomach since last night.
Please tell me if you were in my shoes what you’d think or feel? Would you just say no biggie and move on, or have different feelings? I want other woman’s opinions on this