in

England

Absolutely miserable

Been with my husband for 12yrs
(married for 4yrs)

We have a 2yr old and a 9wk old, and im literally so fed up and tired waiting for thing to get better since having our 2nd baby.

He cries majority of the day and ive done all the nights on my own as ebf so have had broken sleep for over 2mnths as the week up to having baby I wasnt sleeping either, I get sleep deprivation magnifies everything

But I am so angry all the time mainly with my hubby, feel like I can't stand him atm

He works mon-fri 5am til 5:30pm. Ive been trying to explain how tired I am etc and he just throws back at me how hes tired too, I tried to explain again the above and he responded with if I did 5hrs driving a day and some days no breaks id be tired too hinting hes more tired or just as tired as I am... I said difference being I would get another job as hes right I wouldnt do it.

He just annoys me so much i said he doesn't get it and needs to learn to understand because all its doing is missing me off, he walked away from me into the garden.

I do all the nights alone whilst he sleeps through. I do 95% of newborns nappies i could count on 1 hand how many he has done.

Im wishing the time/weeks away in the hope that things get better as I get it will eventually but my gosh im so miserable right now its unreal.

We are not eating dinner separately as by time he cooks it its usually 8:30pm and I dint want to eat so late, he doesn't want me to cook, I said im gonna get ready meals as its easier for me to eat with our toddler at 5pm. He asked how long for etc and cooking for me is what he looks forward to, but I said it causes me too much stress in the eve. I just wana eat and feed baby then go to bed. We have no routine and until there is one thats the best thing for me to do, which he isnt happy about. I told him he could have ready meals too, or cook and I will have it the next day at a time I want it etc

Don't know what I want from this , I guess just somewhere to vent and be heard as clearly he isnt listening or getting it 🫩