Am I broken or is this just life now?

I need some advice or somewhere to vent that isn’t my head or feeling like I’m annoying the crap out of friends. My little boy is 8 weeks old and before a few days ago I’ve felt generally okay. Obviously teary and stressed in places but nothing that I cant handle. The past couple days however have been horrid. I’m trying to tell myself he’s just fussy because of the hot weather (who isn’t son?) but I’m just really struggling with life right now. He’s not even THAT fussy, he still sleeps relatively good throughout the night but when he cries throughout the day I want to just leave and never come back. I know I wouldn’t but the thought is there.
I feel like recently I’m getting way more overwhelmed at the smallest of things. I often feel like I’ve made the biggest mistake of my life and he deserves so much better than what I’m giving him. I also feel so much guilt for feeling this way because I know I have it technically so much easier than others, we have a brilliant support network, friends with babies his age and my partner is off for another 5 weeks. I just can’t shake the feeling that I wasn’t built for motherhood and the thought of having to feel this way for the rest of our lives makes me terrified I’m going to pass on childhood trauma to my little one.

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Try having a 9 week old and a toddler. I feel constantly needed, no time for myself and when my partner works from home, it's even harder because he can't help but he's there. I definitely felt the same with my first but you'll forget the times you were sad and stresses. I'm also on unpaid maternity so money is tight right now... I keep telling myself this is only temporary. In a year or two we'll look back and laugh. It will get easier! When you get a chance even if it's 10 minutes/ half an hour, try and do something for yourself. Face mask, a walk, make an iced coffee (if you drink coffee), anything to feel sane x

Girl big fat SAME. I have sobbed for 2 days straight looking at my 6 week old doing EXACTLY the same thing! Just been made redundant so bye bye any career and independence I had left 🫠🫠🫠 my mum has been my saving grace but she’s on holiday and I feel like I’m in an open sea during a storm and my baby is on a boat i cant get to

Babe your still in the trenches alongside this heat 😭😭😭 your body and hormones and everything is still adjusting plus caring for a baby 24/7 is very difficult, you'll get through it and it doesn't mean your not capable

My dear, I feel you. What you described how you feel can be early signs of postpartum depression. You have amazing support network as you mentioned, but sometimes it’s not enough. And the feelings you are having definitely should be flagged up to your GP. Please do not suffer in silence. You are not broken nor crazy- you just need some extra help ❤️

I felt like that with my first and no, it isn’t normal and I’m not saying that to be horrible or scare you. I had postpartum depression and anxiety and it manifested like this along with a lot of other things. I’d definitely seek help via the GP if you’re feeling this way because it can get a lot worse very quickly without the right professional support.

Since having my second child I realised how bad I was, it’s so much easier now, even with a toddler and a newborn just because my mental health is a lot better at the moment.

Hope you’re feeling better soon and remember your feelings are valid 💕

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What should I do?

Our pediatrician blew raspberries on my 4month olds feet today.

Anybody’s parents not comfortable coming over to your house because they don’t like your spouse?

My husband and I had a big disagreement a couple months before the baby was born. I vented to my mom about it and she was upset with him understandably.
Fast forward the baby is born and my mother wasn’t able to come over because she was sick at the time and didn’t fully recover until my baby was two months. When she finally came over to help me while I slept, she told me that my husband would come out of his office whenever the baby started to cry and rudely told her not to turn on the tv when she asked to play a show for her. She felt that he didn’t want her to be there. But when I spoke to my husband, he was very apologetic and explained that it wasn’t like that.
I told my mom that it was a misunderstanding and next time I’ll be awake when she comes over but she said she’s not coming over anymore and if I need help to go over to her house.

Has anybody been in a similar situation? If so how did things start to work out?

Neglect?

Do you believe not socializing your kid or taking your kids out to activities like the park, zoo, playspace, etc. as neglect? Obviously these things aren’t necessary but it’s a learning experience and enriching for their development.

MIL has fell out with me

My MIL has fell out with me because I expressed concern about her giving my recently turned 5 month old ice cold filtered water out of a glass (no sterilisation) - behind my back despite me politely telling her beforehand that he’d never had water before and I’d prefer for her not to give it to him yet. (For context I walked in on her doing it btw so I saw it first hand and was absolutely shocked). She yelled in my face, completely snapped at me, told me she’ll never do anything for me again, was sarcastic about her changing his nappy and said she hopes I don’t have a problem with that either. I remained calm during the whole exchange despite her giving me evil stares and rolling her eyes multiple times and just being rude. She stormed off and has refused to speak to me since. I sent her a message the morning after to check if she’s ok and that I’d love to restore our relationship but she’s ignored it (not like her as she usually responds immediately). My husband is abroad atm so he’s not around to mediate. I’m really keen to repair this and get back to normal but I’m not sure what else to do at this point.

Anyone have any advice or tips?