Spinal Anesthesia v Epidural

From what I know, the epidural needle is thicker but shorter, and the spinal needle is thinner but longer
For my C-section, they had to do the spinal twice
I’m so sorry to hear about your first experience and I hope this next experience is much smoother for you🫶

Apologise for the long response but I completely understand your fear
I have a degenerative spinal condition also on my lumbar spine and was beyond petrified of what the consequences would be if I needed either, got through three and a half days of labour only nothing but gas and air only for my spine to give out last minute needing to have a c section and therefore one of the two options… this made me spiral and think of the absolute worst picturing raising my child whilst being paralysed from it going wrong😭 my anaesthetist was an absolute angel and really didn’t fancy either option but when there was no other option strongly recommended spinal vs epidural, had it done under stressful conditions (he did slightly struggle to get it in due to damage) but he did, worked beautifully and had absolutely no consequences of having had it so far (4 month pp) the thinner needle with spinal I think is beneficial