I think I’m ruining my relationship but can’t change my behaviour

I’m 3m pp, breastfeeding, c section for context. I have no interest in being touched, to the point it feels like an aversion, like I’m suddenly asexual. My partner and I didn’t have a great start for the first 2 months pp. He was so unhelpful and rude and kept trying to start arguments over anything seemingly just for attention. The last month has been entirely different, he’s so helpful around the house and makes an effort with us and has such a lovely relationship with the baby.
We’ve always been best friends and it feels like the friendship part is back, but he goes to hug or kiss me or be flirty or sexual and nothing switches on for me. He’s not complaining, he can see I’m being a mum 24/7 busy breastfeeding or nappy changing or playing or being a bed for our baby, but I do feel bad that he can probably tell his feelings just aren’t reciprocated. It’s like I KNOW I love him but all feeling other than the love I have for our baby is numb. Does this go away? It’s like I only have space in my heart for one and it’s awful thinking that. Is there something wrong with me? Or is this just life postpartum? How long until it goes?

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So annoyed

Going through this pathetic phase where my daughter is waking up whinging every fucking morning! And there is NOTHING wrong with her it's just noise because as soon as I sit up she smiles!

I just want one fucking lie in!!

Bring back the newborn phase because I swear I hate this!

Bassinet advice bc I’m exhausted

So even been co sleeping. I know I know. But that night at 4am I just couldn’t anymore. But now that he’s getting bigger and is sleeping through big stretches now. I really want him sleeping at least most of the night in his own ”bed”.
Ive tried to put him in there already asleep, almost asleep, awake but drowsy, ect but he just lays there kicking or just start crying. I don’t mind co sleeping with naps sometimes I need a nap too but for actual bedtime I need help getting him to stay in there for sleeping.
We’ve been up for two hours since he woke up to eat, he’s in the bassinet looking like he wants to sleep but he keeps kicking his legs and not letting himself fall asleep.
Dude hates being swaddled just screams until he’s free so that’s not an option.
I just want to be able to actually sleep instead of lay here with my brain still half conscious. Been forced laying still through the nights so much that my hips and legs hurt from not being able to fully stretch and relax.
Kind advice please.

-one exhausted FTMama

Question

Need some help, my 7 weeks old baby hasn’t poop 💩 since two days and he’s been crying 😢 I have done the exercises but nothing
seems to work. Any advise?

Baby welfare

When should I be concerned about a babies welfare and get involved?
I have a close relative who has a 7 month old and is just giving the baby food and water no milk or formula even though we have told them multiple times that the baby need milk still as main drink 😅 I have an older baby of my own and I think she gets confused as my baby is over one she follows what I do even though I tell her that she only has cows milk and mainly food because she’s over one 😅
I can’t remember now but do they do any health visits around this age?
we have all tried offering advice and guidance but it gets ignored

Do your breastfed babies sleep through (at 6 months?)?

Thinking of adding formula so he sleeps more??

True or false?: there is nothing wrong with saying you hate breastfeeding as a breastfeeding Mum

I'm tired of the judgemental looks or comments I get when I speak about how I hate breastfeeding...a lot of it comes from other breastfeeding Mums or as I like to controversially call them: titty police/breastfeeding cult. Another reaction I get is that I need "mental health help" 🤦🏼‍♀️ the main issue is women who had an easy journey become ignorant and judgemental, but there is nothing wrong with hating it. I can still do what's best for our son but I don't have to like it. True or false?