Is it just me?
So I joined this to make friends find connections, but I feel like I connected with some people had some conversations and then it just dies out fades out. I feel like and I might be the only one here, but I feel like some people are just on here just to know about other moms and then that’s it, or read posts of Mom‘s going through things and that’s just not why I did this like I moved to a town where I am new here. I don’t know anybody I’m a new mom well, he’s 18 months now but still I’m a new mom. He’s my only son you know and like I do everything and anything for him like 24/7 he is my life so I forgot about who I am and I’m trying to make friends here like I’m trying to create something so when it comes to his birthday parties I have Mom friends that bring kids! My older sister has kids and I go to her birthday parties they’re huge! I’m not jealous but at the same time, I envy that because that’s what I want. I want connections I want friends I want my son to have friends, I feel like maybe some people are just like here for the wrong reasons it sucks! I’m really here to try to make connections and I wish I can get the same effort I’m putting in back. Don’t get me wrong I connected with one girl and it’s been great haven’t set a play date yet.
but I know I’m ranting right now but that’s just how I feel and it’s hurtful the whole reason for this app is to feel better about not feeling like your the only one and there are people out there but I’m trying and it’s just been frustrating I guess
Just wanted to rant and get some opinions
Me and my baby daddy haven’t been together since my toddler was born, he’s now 19 months. BD comes over Almost every day to take care of our son while I go work, there’s been times where we ended up chilling together in the evenings which would lead to having sex, to this day bd still calls me baby or says I love you even though I don’t say those things back. Recently I found out I’m pregnant, I told him and he said all the supportive things like he will be present this pregnancy (he was so useless when our son was born, he was always out with friends and I was always alone with our son) but he was saying things like he knows it will be hard but he wants to make it work. I’m already stressed as it is cause our toddler is very difficult to deal with and I don’t know how I would cope with a newborn on top of everything. Today I was arguing with my bd over text cause he was meant to come over and help with dinner cause I was throwing up all day and could barely take care of our son, I was so weak to the point I couldn’t even make our son a proper breakfast and he didn’t eat anything normal until 5pm today as I was too weak in the morning to function . Bd messaged at 4:40pm telling me he’s not coming anymore cause he’s “pissed off his charger broke and he can’t charge his phone” so I go off at him cause this is just ridiculous excuse and his responses were like “you’re acting like you’re 6 months pregnant” and things like “I was ill over the weekend and still had to take care of our son and cook for him when I felt like death” just being really inconsiderate, I was told all I do is think about myself aswell. This whole situation made me reconsider wether I should keep this baby, I told myself I’d never have an abortion but in this situation I feel like I will have 0 support from bd side and I don’t think I can deal with a pregnancy and a toddler all by myself and then a newborn. I feel so stupid for even getting into this situation and not learning from the mistake the first time, and now wether I have an abortion or keep this baby I will be living with the consequences, not him. I really don’t know what to do, can I get some advice? Thank you all for taking your time to read this, I really needed to get it off my chest as no one in my family knows about the pregnancy cause they all hate my baby daddy (ironic)
