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Does anyone else feel guilty about having a C-section? 😭
I had a C-section, and it definitely wasn’t the birth I wanted. I had everything planned out and really wanted to have a vaginal birth. I know not everything goes according to plan, and I completely understand that sometimes things happen that are out of our control. My baby girl was breech and I had low fluid, so she got stuck in that position. I also wasn’t dilated at all, so they didn’t even try to flip her. I ended up having her at 37w5d.
People think I’m being dramatic when I say I absolutely hated my C-section and wish I never had to experience it. I also hate when people tell me that “a C-section is better and easier than a vaginal birth.” Maybe that was the experience for some people, but it definitely wasn’t mine. I hated mine so much.
For a while, I felt like I failed because I couldn’t have the vaginal birth I had wanted. I feel like I’m mourning the birth experience I thought I was going to have, and that’s a really hard feeling to explain to people.
I still feel like I failed and everything at 3 months post c section
I am so incredibly happy and grateful that my baby girl is here safely, and I would make the same decision all over again to keep her safe. But that doesn’t mean I have to love how her birth happened. I can be grateful for my healthy baby while still being sad about the birth experience I lost.
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