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does anyone else feel like they’ve absolutely lost them selves they just don’t know who they are and how to figure who they are now they know there a mum but apart from a mum who they are how to find who there meant to be

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Yup. I’ve only JUST started to feel myself again and my boys just over 9 months. It’s important to find some time in the day to do something for yourself, even if it’s something tiny.. it really helped me a lot. Keep your chin up, you will find yourself again - I promise.

Hey! I honestly get how you feel, after looking after my 2m old boy all day I feel lost when he goes down to bed, I don’t know who I am without him, in a good way but also it’s sad I don’t feel like I have another purpose anymore! Always here if you need to reach out🤍

Yep, especially with twins. The days are so relentless and monotonous and overwhelming and I miss the old me so much - both in the things I used to be able to do before having two newborns and in this new body that I'm still struggling to recognise as mine. Take each hour at a time when you get bogged down in all this and remember that even though it feels like forever, it will get better. I can't wait for when I can get back to myself again and for when my boys are old enough to join me in doing the things I love 💕

you’re never the same again ❤️‍🩹 I completely understand how this feels

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Am I being dramatic?

I had a fight with my baby daddy in which he took my 2 kids to his mom's house while I was at work & he said he "was not bringing them back" & that I can "visit". The following is a conversation I had with his mom. Am I in the wrong for wanting to keep my distance from her? For context, his mom is a heavy smoker (when we lived with her she never respected the fact that we had babies & would sometimes smoke weed inside.) She has a weird boyfriend that stalked her, hacked her phone, broke her windshield, slashed her tires & put a tracker in her car (he followed me to my mom's house with his best friend thinking I was her.) she lives at HIS house & she has always made her kids jealous of my babies (her daughter had a dream of killing my babies & just laughed it off when I asked if she would). Sorry this was long but I can also go into more details. My babies are 2 years and a 9 month old, exclusively breastfed & have NEVER slept away from me.. (my babies are with me, they did not stay there). He just made me feel "dramatic" for still being mad about it and not wanting to talk to his mom.

Friends

Looking for a friend that wants to snap spicy pics and hang out im also okay with social media friends ….. I live in nc …… I’m okay with exchanging photos as well … I do have a boyfriend who is okay with it. Ps Ima a bigger girl

Would you stay or leave?

Long story short, me & my bf have a 2 year old.
My whole pregnancy and 2 years of my son being here hasn’t been easy. I had little support from my bf because he wanted to play golf all the time, be at the pub or worked late. He was an alcoholic and a heavy Ketamine user.. he quit a few weeks ago.
I forgave so many things, like him never supporting or spending time with us, not helping around the house, coming home in a bad way, having seizures or falling from too much drugs and alcohol.. it was scary. I forgave everything, even things like i planned a birthday day out and he got way too drunk, sniffed too much, we left early and he went to get more Ketamine. It ruined my plans and the day completely.

I said a couple months ago he needed to move out if he didn’t stop all of it, so he has.
But now i look back and can’t believe i let him treat me that way.. i feel traumatised and upset when i think back to all the things he had done. And it’s made me fall out of love with him.
But i know he is trying so hard to not go back to alcohol, drugs and is helping more and being present.
What should i do?

Ps, my son has never witnessed him being in a bad way, i have always kept our son in a different room or away from him completely.

Is this okay?

Bf forcing me into a career because he said it’s the only way to make money. Commercial real estate, he on a new kick and said i have 3 months to get going on it or he’ll find a partner who will… apparently my goals in life don’t matter as much as money. We have 3 under 5 and I’m a caregiver for my 2 asd kids and homeschooling and therapy 5 days a week between those 2 kids and being disabled myself and we don’t even live together so I do it all alone basically. I planned on having and building a career because I’m 23 I have time still but he said that doesn’t matter and i need my real estate license asap. I planned on going back to school to either finish my criminology degree or go into cosmetology/ be a nail tech since I already do nails on the side. I said I have more than enough time in my day to get my license and and basically start running a business when I’m barely holding things together at home😤

Loneliness

Hello! First time poster here 🙈 currently been on maternity leave (used remaining holiday) since 30th July and have never felt lonelier. No one texts, makes plans with me, am too depressed to reach out and don’t want to feel like a burden. Anyone else feel like this and will it pass??

Sex

Am I the only one who just has no interest in sex even if I love my partner? I want to love it but I just can’t I even offered for him to go get it elsewhere. I know that’s not everyone’s cup of tea but I’m just that detached from sex and I feel it’s selfish of me to deprive him of it. He even tells me that he just wants to have sex with his partner but I just don’t want to.