Feeling lost

I’m 38 weeks and got broke up with yesterday, I feel utterly broken and I’ve already been struggling being really depressed throughout the entire pregnancy and now I am in the trenches and don’t know what to do. I have no friends and only my mum n dad and don’t drive, no access to do stuff by myself and I feel so utterly alone and don’t know what to do. He’s left me cause he says I’ve been verbally overwhelming and mean, I have been, I’ve been so sad and miserable and in so much pain I’ve got myself so frustrated with everyone and everything and now I feel I’ve ruined everything. I just need to vent and I need advice I don’t know what to do, I’m terrified and I have to do labour alone and the only person I want to hold me I can’t even cause he hates me. I am broken

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I’m so sorry to hear this. However please don’t blame yourself, if that man cannot deal with you and your emotions at such a time then he needs to gain some maturity.
You don’t need him and you don’t need to rely on anyone.
You can walk use a bus get a train you don’t need to drive.
Please don’t ever feel like you need a man I know you’re heartbroken but what man does this.
You are stronger than you realise and you’ll be ok no matter what. Try and be positive look for the good in the little things.. sending love 🤍 xxx

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Oh bless you I am so sorry you are going through this. I think you should reach out to perinatal mental health if you haven’t already. Your hormones and emotions are all over the place and your partner should understand this. Reach out to them and then reach out to him. But remember you can do this and if he doesn’t stick by you at your worst he goes not deserve you at your best. Feel free to reach out direct if you want to chat. Good luck and you’ve got this, we are all stronger than we think

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I'm so sorry this has happened to you. It's scary being on your own. My friend went through the very same, the dad did a runner. Wimps! Of course youre gna be mean! Hormones are crazy! & the pain. My pregnancy has had loads of pain & I've been so short & mean! It's one of hardest things you'll ever do. You should not be judged & be supported! Especially if you're able to recognise it's not you it's the hormones. I've definitely had to apologise a few times.
I feel like ducking out when youre so close to popping is a dick move! Just cause you've broken up why does that mean he's not going to be there when you give birth? Why does the support for his child stop? Not good enough! It might not seem like it but it'll be ok! Millions of people are single parents & theyre better of doing it alone! When you have your baby nothing else will matter.
Do get help for the depression. I had to go on medication & had counselling for 2 years after my first. It saved my life! You'll grow from this & become even stronger!!

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This breaks my heart to read I’m so sorry you’re going through this, pregnancy is a rollercoaster of emotions definitely don’t blame yourself, if he can’t deal with your emotions now how can he be mature enough to deal with all the emotions that come after baby is here and the challenges of being a parent. Sounds like he needs to do some growing up still without sounding too harsh. I’m in a similar situation so I sympathise with you, also have no friends and been left by baby’s dad to deal with pregnancy alone, no emotional or financial support and will also be doing labour alone. It’s a scary time but I don’t doubt you will find the strength to get through this for your baby ❤️ it might be worth speaking to your midwife and see what support they can offer you, my midwife has been great. I hope he will come to his senses and regret his decision but if not don’t feel your completely alone there’s a lot of help and support out there. Wishing you the best of luck x

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Happened to me 6w pp. it’s horrible and the resentment eats you up but don’t let it. Cry it out and just keep telling yourself life goes on and it will get better. Do you really care about someone who walked out like that?

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I just want to vent had to let this out ..
the man I sleep beside every night didn't tell me happy birthday didn't even get me a gift . Next day got me a cheap ass card with $100 in it ..
that same day he brought gifts to go to a baby shower , later that night he went to straight club ended up at motel paying for pussay .. for this men bday I gifted him 5 gifts . Lord knows how broken was , then got the audacity to come home and lay on My bed didn't even shower , EVENTUALLY I LET ANGER GET OVER ME AND PUT MY HANDS ON HIM . Asked him to leave my house he refusing , I'm not even comfortable in my own house.
I am 6mon Postpartum.

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Have Family member around for the first month pp?

I'm FTM due in Jan 2027.
Me and my husband have been arguing about this, so I’d really love to hear other people’s experiences!
I’d like to have my sister around after I have the baby. She works, but she’s happy to come and stay for at least 3 weeks to a month to help me during the early days. However, during her last visit, my MIL told my husband that having someone around might mean we don’t get enough time to bond with the baby, and that if she had the choice, she’d have only wanted mum and dad around.

She did actually have her own mum with her for at least 3 weeks after both of her deliveries, but since that comment my husband has been quite stuck on the idea that it should just be “our family time” and that he’ll be there to support me.
I come from a big joint family, so having family around after a baby is completely normal to me. All my sisters had family helping them during their postpartum recovery, so I’ve always seen it as a time when you get extra support rather than something that takes away from bonding with your baby.

My sister is also not someone who would constantly be in our business or take over. She’d help where needed and give us plenty of space to have our own time as a new family.

I’m also finding this particularly difficult because I don’t have my mum, so my sister is really the closest person I have who could be there for me emotionally and practically. My husband will be home for 2 weeks on paternity leave, but after that I’ll be on my own while he goes back to work.

So I’d really love to know what others think. Am I being too sensitive about this, or is it completely reasonable to want family around during those first few weeks for the emotional, physical and practical support?

Would you personally prefer to have just you and your partner around to bond with the baby, or would you have appreciated an extra pair of hands and some company?

And if you had family staying with you after birth, did you find it helpful or did you feel like it got in the way of having your own family time? Would really appreciate hearing everyone’s experiences!

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Feeling lost

I’m 38 weeks and got broke up with yesterday, I feel utterly broken and I’ve already been struggling being really depressed throughout the entire pregnancy and now I am in the trenches and don’t know what to do. I have no friends and only my mum n dad and don’t drive, no access to do stuff by myself and I feel so utterly alone and don’t know what to do. He’s left me cause he says I’ve been verbally overwhelming and mean, I have been, I’ve been so sad and miserable and in so much pain I’ve got myself so frustrated with everyone and everything and now I feel I’ve ruined everything. I just need to vent and I need advice I don’t know what to do, I’m terrified and I have to do labour alone and the only person I want to hold me I can’t even cause he hates me. I am broken

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Am I wrong?

So me and my bf got into a huge argument today. He is upset because im upset about him calling me a weak person and all together just being a disrespectful person towards me . So last weekend he decided to bring his other daughter (shes 6) to meet her new lil sis (our daughter) he told me that he was gonna help clean I didn’t have to do it all myself. I have an 10 yr old son as well so , during this convo he said I could go to his house to get rest while he watches the girls , my son decided to come home from by his grandmother cus he goes to school over there and she helps me out plus all his cousins over there as well . So I said no I’ll stay at my place cus its gonna be 3 kids and I could just sleep in the bed with my son while him and the girls take my room. He really didn’t do anything. He slept most of the time the first night I got 4hrs of sleep and then he came in the middle of the night while I was pumping and gave her to me . Settled her down brought her back in the room. The second night he just complained about how she keeps waking up . Now mind you I pumped and made bottles for him so all he had to do was grab warm and feed . So long story short , he told me today that I need to stop breastfeeding because our daughter isn’t getting enough milk . Now she was 7lbs 15oz at birth and now is 9lbs 10oz as of now . I make about 4 if im lucky 5oz per pump session. My daughter is 4 weeks old today. She drinks about 2.5-3oz of milk. He told me he was gonna come stay over the weekend again and help out . Came Friday, didn’t really help baby started getting fussy he handing her back to me saying “she doesn’t like me” 😒, leaves Saturday morning the whole day he was gone came back around 8:30pish brought pampers (cool) but only stayed for 15 mins left. Texted me around midnight asked if I was sleep I said no , he said he was on his way back , I like the message. Then texts back “If you want me to just wait til the morning I can do that as well” so I said why? Then replied back it doesn’t matter” cus at that point I saw no reason to be arguing if you said you were on the way 🤦🏾‍♀️. Then text back “ima just come in the morning i don’t want to disturb you.” So the today he calls around 1p and gets upset about me not interacting the way he wants me to with him . Tells me that when I get help from him I have an attitude. But in reality when he comes over I don’t speak I go in my room let him get the baby and lay down and relax. Answer whatever question he asks and thats it, no laughing no joking no nothing. Im tired and overwhelmed I wake up every 2-3hrs to keep a human alive while he’s at his house gets all his rest , goes to work and go straight home and relaxes and he wants to tell me im making this a bad experience for him . Im making it harder on myself because im breastfeeding and I need to stop . I need to give my baby formula. He’s had 4 other kids and he knows what to do . Just degrading me . So he comes get her and I slept for 2.5 hrs and he texted me saying to unlock the door, walks in and says “She doesn’t like the formula” I tried giving her 4 oz of it but she not drinking it. She just kept pushing the bottle out . Started breastfeeding her she’s feeding well . Now am I wrong for wanting to just get a couple hours of sleep? Or was all this just a “doing too much” thing that didn’t even needed to happen? Cus he got proven wrong and didn’t want to say anything like his pride was hurt about being wrong.

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Just a rant

I feel like a failure. For context I am divorced and just got legally married to my new husband. We just eloped at the courthouse for now and want a wedding next year so we have plenty of time to save up. Right now finances are hard because I have some debt and I'm trying to get out of it. I am the breadwinner in my home because I made a lot more money than my hubs so we decided to have him be a SAHD so that we didn't have to pay for childcare anymore which has helped a lot. But it's a lot of pressure being solely financially responsible for the whole family (2 kids so 4 of us) especially when I'm not in the financial place I want to be. When we get married next year it'll be my 2nd wedding but his first. And he is excited for it. We just came back from his cousin's wedding today and wow they went all out. It was beautiful. My first wedding was the same way. I had all the things. This was possible because I was in a great place financially at the time and also my parents gave me 10k to put towards that wedding. There was a family friend at my cousin in laws wedding today who kept talking to us about our wedding next year and how we should have this and that and how I shouldn't worry cause my parents will give me money for the wedding and next we have to buy a house (right now we rent), etc. And it made me want to cry. His family doesn't know I was once already married. I doubt my parents will be giving me anymore money towards a second wedding and I would never ask either sk this time it will all be out of my pocket. I want to give my husband and his family tye best wedding that he deserves cause this is his first one and since I'm the bride it's my family's responsibility to pay for most of everything but since this is my second wedding its not. It's mine. All mine. And it sucks and breaks my heart that I may not be able to give him the wedding he dreams of and the life he dreams of because of my stupid past mistakes. And making him a SAHD was all my idea so he's trusting me completely to take care of our family. I just want to please him and take care of everything but it's a lot of pressure. And I hope that I can somehow give us a beautiful wedding next year but keep it within a decent budget but still make him.and his family happy. I just hate the situation I'm in financially. I'm looking for encouraging words I guess.

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