Life is draining me

Been a SAHM mom for 7 years now And the more I stay home the more my husband and I fight the more I hate him the more I hate this SAHM ish. Plus I homeschool 😭😭I’ve been looking for jobs and sending applications but is there anyone even hiring 😭😭. I just feel like runny away . This year is just getting worse each month .

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Back to work

I know this is really judgemental,. But I love working, I really want to go back but at the same time, I cannot even fathom leaving my baby.
The thing that I am judgemental on, is that I do not want to me one of them mums who just live on benefits for the rest of their lives, live in a council place and solely rely on council to help me out, have many children with different daddies because I have already left my baby daddy, I have already had so many emails asking when I am returning and I just don't know what to do. I break down into tears everytime I think about it because I know how judgemental I am being with it. I know that some mothers cannot help that and really do need it, but i also know mums who use benefits as a way to do fuck all. I don't even know what to say anymore...
I guess thanks for hearing me rant 😭😅

My baby daddy hates this app

There’s always some drama in this group and it pops up on my phone and my boyfriend/baby Dad always checks it out and just gets so angry that we be bashing all of these deadbeat ass mf’s .

Buddy if the SHOE FITS , 😭😭🤣🤣 half of the time we don’t even talking shit we’re just speaking facts 😆 don’t do dumb and disrespectful and dishonest shit if u don’t want no one to know about it fools 🙌🏻

Friends!

Making friends as an adult is so hard let alone being a mom! Going on apps to find friends or ven in person but people have gotten so weird since covid. No one genuinely wants to be your friend, they are jealous, and hateful people. They always want you to text them first. people say they want to be or want friends but when you talk to them they ghost you, they just want followers online, or they already have friends! Like hello some people want genuine connections not just a hey, and bye situation!

Had my first night out 5 months PP

I need mom friends so we can do moms after dark 😭

Guilty

I feel horrible for saying this but does anyone else get so overwhelmed and hate being a mom sometimes even tho it’s everything you’ve always wanted
I have a 3month old and I love him to death but lately it has been so so overwhelming from the sleep deprivation to the head aches and loneliness that I sometimes just want to give up
Does anyone else feel like this? Or am I just a bad mom please be honest

Does sex ever return to normal?

Me and my partner used to have sex a lot, pretty much every time we saw each other (we were long distance but he spent every weekend at my house Friday night - Sunday evening). When I got to around 20 weeks pregnant it just stopped, he had mentioned he was scared of hurting the baby if he was on top, but we didn’t have sex for 6 months so even after baby was born. We eventually did after having baby (about 3 months after) but only a couple of times and it’s always after I’ve bought up the fact we just don’t do anything intimate anymore.
Since January we’ve been intimate 4 times.. the baby sleeps through the night so it’s not like we don’t have time.
I don’t doubt that he loves me one bit, but I’m starting to think he’s just not attracted to me anymore.
I don’t want to bring it up again because then we will just have sex, I’ll feel like he didn’t want to and just did it because I mentioned it, then it won’t happen again until I bring it up again..

Did this happen to anyone else? Any advice?