Mom guilt

It sounds like a really difficult time, sorry for you, I wouldn't blame someone for not being happy with that sort of behaviour, it must be so grating.. it sounds like she's acting out about something, trying to find some control maybe?

Incog, if it makes you feel better my one year old also does all these things. I don’t have the same feelings as you but just know that it isn’t just your baby, I think those are common behaviours! Everything gets harder now as they are doing more and it’s ok to struggle. Hope you can find solace from people who feel the same and just try and lighten the load if you have people around you who can take baby for a few hours a day and give u a break. Sending love xx

Also I recommend sticking miss Rachel on always calms my boy down!

I felt like this with my daughter- can I be totally honest, the feelings never got better. I loved her because it’s biological but I didn’t like her, she was always horrendous to me physically and she’d go out of her way to put a wedge between myself and hubby- her behaviour was so bad at one point my hubby and I suggested separating so we could both a have a break from her from time to time. She’s now 19 and still isn’t a nice person.
I suffered with depression because of my feelings towards her.
When my son came along 16 years later I just can’t believe this is what motherhood should have been like.
My hubby and I just look at him in awe and think is this what it should have been like? It’s harsh but the truth is sometimes these feelings don’t go away and it’s not your fault.