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Second time mumma’s

Two kids vs one

I just recently found out I'm pregnant unexpectedly. I'm slight excited but also am pretty nervous and hesitant about this. To give an idea on situation..
My daughter is 4. Her dad and I split up for about a year, still Coparented and were involved in each others lives. We decided to get back together and try again as the break happened due to kind of weird circumstances between us.. His dad was super sick and took all of his time and he left me hanging for a long time with the baby/post partum.
Anyways, so it's been a short time we've been back together now and suprise, apparently pregnant.
I have so many thoughts in my head.. Financially I'm stressed about it, just practicality about a baby in our 'new' situation so to speak.
And my daughter and I are VERY close. She is mine, my bestie, wants me for almost everything, like we just are everything together to each other.. And I'm stressed about bringing a baby into our lives and rocking that dynamic. I don't want her and I to change what we have because it's so special and beautiful.
Do I think it would change yes, as drastic as maybe I'm imagining.. No.
I know, being a second though, same with my partner. That sometimes the first can feel forgotten in the busyness of a new baby and the second can be forgotten in the dynamic of a parent first kid bond. We've seen it and heard it from/with siblings all our lives.
I need some help making my brain make sense.. What's your situation with two, how much did it change, iv heard one is one and two is twenty and that scares me.
I also just got a new position at work which stresses me out to leave that in a handful of months. I had wicked post partum also which makes me nervous but the relationship with my daughter changing.. That scares me more.
Help. Tell me what it was like if u were someone who maybe had similar thoughts. 🙏 Thanks in advance mamas