How do you deal with being married and still loving your spouse but feeling disgusted and completely turned off by them after cheating, trust issues, and constant relationship drama? Is the marriage worth rebuilding ?

If roles were reversed and you were the one doing what he is doing do you think he would stay???? That’s your answer

This is so hard to come back from and I hate to say it but once a cheater always a cheater ❤️‍🩹

i think you should clarify - did he cheat with another person? if so, the relationship would be over for me.
i have had issues with my husband looking at porn or onlyfans bitches & that is something we’ve worked through. it’s still a work in progress with me trusting him obviously, but i can work through something like that. never would put up with physically cheating with another person tho.
i also want to point out that my husband lost his virginity to me (we got together at 16) & he has never been with another woman

How you are feeling now even if you manage to temporarily block it out you will always have more days then not when you feel like this again, question everything. Feel insecure and like you are not good enough, wonder if todays the day he does it again, if his late night working or his boys trip is really him doing it again, do you think you deserve this lifelong trauma? No, no-one does... do you think you won't question every fall out and argument if he is running into the arms of another woman.. course you will... its not fair. He made a choice already and it wasn't you and if you forgive him and its never really going to be you again because your the woman who forgave him and allowed it.. it didn't happen by accident... he already left he just wants to have options now

Personally, I would never stay with someone who had cheated. That kind of trust can't be regained and there will always be some level of doubt.