Do you have these kind of days ?

I’ve been scrolling through my gallery and got so nostalgic.
I have a pretty baby girl that’s 10 months , a good partner and an upcoming wedding. We moved to live close to the beach because it was my childhood dream , we are still trying to travel even though it’s different now and I don’t have to worry about finances and etc .
However, I constantly find myself grieving my old life . I looked at the pictures and I’m so happy there and I miss it but then I’m trying to remember if I was really happy at that time and no I was very very sad partying and traveling too much just to escape loneliness and reality.
I got pregnant when we were together with my partner not the full 2 years and I miss the moments when we were just 2 of us . Hugging and enjoying company of each other. We are still trying to have dates , kisses and hugs etc but it feels completely different.
Sometimes I feel like I’m missing baby”s moments because I’m still in my imaginary life that was or maybe wasn’t before the baby .
All my friends are without kids and seeing them so free and independent makes me question everything 🤦🏻‍♀️
We have fights sometimes with my partner because of that , but at the same time we have 11 years difference and I think I can be having my own crises . He already went through them and telling me just to relax and not to take everything so personal- is a little weird because come on man , you lived your life and were not even thinking to have a baby at my age so yes I can be sad sometimes and miss parties or whatever. Maybe it’s also because we had a lot of fights after my PP that’ I suppose somehow effected our relationship .
Everything is good but my brain is always jumping to conclusions that gonna lead me to believe otherwise…. Like a survival mode , thinking that everything cannot be good true

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Ok so I understand how you are feeling. I would say don't lose yourself in motherhood. You can still be a version of yourself before baby. This version will be a new you. You can enjoy motherhood but also have a part that is just you and not about being a mom. Think about what you like to do for fun, what hobbies and interests do you have? 11yrs can be a huge difference, especially if you weren't planning to have a baby yet. If you truly have a good relationship with your partner, don't mess it up because you're over thinking things. But before you take the leap to get married make sure you have all of the necessary and important conversations about EVERYTHING. You don't want to be blind sided later because you just didn't ask or assumed. Overall Don't forget about you, think about who you want to be.

I really feel this 🤍 You can love your life now and still miss your old one. Looking back at photos can make everything seem so perfect, even when you know you weren’t actually happy at the time.
And I totally get missing the “just us” days. Having a baby changes your relationship so much, and dates, hugs and kisses just feel different now. Comparing yourself to friends without kids probably makes it even harder too.
You’re allowed to miss partying, travelling and being carefree without it meaning you don’t appreciate your life now. You’re still young and figuring yourself out, and becoming a mum doesn’t mean that part of you disappears 🥺🤍

Grief is growth. Reflection is growth. It's okay.

Why do we have to stop fun now that we’re mums? Or turning 30. Or 40. Or 50. Your life is as boring or fun as you make it. I still go expos, festivals, concerts, events. My gfs and I went clubbing 2w ago, it was 90’s themed RnB so we were singing and dancing all the old music I grew up with. We can still see friends, have hobbies. I don’t miss my old life coz my life now still has plenty of fun. I took up salsa/bachata as a 36yr old 😅 that was 3yrs ago, I go salsa dancing every Friday and prance out in my dress and heels. Is there a hobby you wanna continue? Or something been you wanna try? I STILL have heels class and pole fitness on my bucket list, who knows when I’ll be able to fit that in to my already busy schedule. We are mums but doesn’t mean we have to dedicate our whole existence to being a Mum. I like being myself sometimes. I go to a Halloween salsa event every year. Go out let your hair down have some fun mama.

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