Just one good day please

It's so hard. I find this age really challenging. From just before a year until about 18 months was a real struggle for me with my eldest but it did get gradually better over that time and it does get easier. Now I've got a 9 month old again and am remembering how hard nappy changes and entertaining them used to be with my older one and realising that somewhere along the line it got so much easier. They're so dependent on us for every single thing right now but as soon as they start walking that starts to change.

I could have honestly written this.
Baby wakes up crying most day, crying at nappy change, while I make meals as he'll be in his playpen or highchair, after meals when I wash him screams murder! The list goes on! And I forgot I can't put him down, like never! And every time he cries I even feel like I'm failing at this..or if I'm angry inside then later feel guilty for those feelings.
I used to think I was the only one with the "difficult baby" but then obviously realised it's not just me.
Some days everything feels like a fight and I count the hours. Whenever I can and if I feel it won't cause more stress, I try to get out for a quick walk or trip to the shop or whatever errand cause it makes me feel I've accomplished something else too (house chores?? What's that?) 😅
Other days I feel so tired cause his night sleep is also an absolute disaster that I stay in and we just nap together in our bed.
Hopefully, as it's been said, once they get walking and become a bit more independent it should get easier.

Oh im so glad im not the only one! Genuinely feel like im doing something wrong most days! As soon as my wife comes home, its all smiles and laughs for her. It surely has to get easier soon 🥹