PPD..

I feel like I am still struggling with postpartum depression a year and a half later. sometimes I question if it’s even postpartum depression or I’m just a bad mom. I know I love my baby , I will do anything for him but sometimes I just can’t accept the reality that I’m a mom and I’m always crying and I’m always sad ,sometimes I feel really disconnected from my child.
I’m really struggling with motherhood I just can’t get used to it. I’ve been a single mom
since day one. I do have help from my mom, but it is very conditional. I barely have time for myself, and when I do is when im working .
I cry every single day, I feel sad, I feel like I’m not meant for this. Nobody cares to listen anymore because he’s not a newborn. Everyone tells me to just get over it and that I’m a mother now. I think about running away a lot because I feel like a terrible mother. I know I’m gonna get judged, but I really needed to let this out..

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I'm so sorry you're going through this. That sounds like so much, especially being a single parent. It sucks that your support is conditional too. I just wanted to say that you're not alone in still feeling the depression - I'm there too, and have been struggling with not feeling the way it seems like most other moms at this stage feel. I'm not sure that I have anything useful to offer, but feel free to dm me if you want to talk.

I know exactly how you feel. I feel this way a lot too. Just know you’re not alone and you are a great mom even if you don’t feel like it❤️ I’m sorry you feel this way🥺

Maybe you should find some therapy and maybe consider meds? That has to be a terrible way to live girl. I'm still struggling daily also just with different symptoms

Please seek counseling. It probably would help if you joined a local moms group in your area. Getting to know other moms and being able to trust they could help with your son. When moms are overly tired we are not good for anyone

I had PPD really bad when my LO was born and I was on Zoloft for a while but then I felt zombie-like. They have me on Wellbutrin now and I feel better than ever. They say that PPD can last years. It takes your body two full years to actually recover from giving birth and scientifically you’re not supposed to get pregnant until after two years because it’s a lot on your body. You grew a whole human and I promise you you’re doing a great job. The fact that you think that you’re doing a bad job shows that you care and I bet you’re doing better than you realize. I was able to find a therapist that could just manage medication because I didn’t think I needed actual therapy and I just needed to find the right medication to cope with my PPD. I hope you find what you need ❤️

I swear they need to name ppd in stages. My ppd now is so different from my ppd when my baby was a newborn but it's still so real and serious. Please consider therapy if you're not going already. You deserve to take care of yourself 💜

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Can someone pls help i keep making this post and nobody is responding

My boyfriend booked a trip for us to go to mexico for a week as my push present. I have severe anxiety leaving my 7 month old with my mom. I know she will be in good hands but she’s exclusively breast fed for the most part but accepts bottles just fine. i have all my pumping parts packed and will pump when baby normally eats but i don’t want baby to forget me or have latch issues when i return!! any mommas ever experience this?

Postpartum

I’m only 3 days postpartum (FTM) and already have extremely bad anxiety. I’m crying every night, as I think of another night of no sleep. My baby will not settle in his cot, he cries every moment we put him down unless in his chair rocker. So me and my partner are having to alternate after 3/4 hours of being awake with him downstairs. I’m trying everything to get him to settle. It’s a load of overwhelming stress. I’m 23, I was desperate for a baby and now I have one and feel completely useless. I miss it just being me and my partner.

When does it get better?

I was crying on the phone with the perinatal mental health team today and the lovely lady, bless her, kept assuring me that it gets better. I kept telling her I hope so because people have been saying that since having my LO and it just feels like it keeps getting worse. She assured me it gets better....

Rant/WWYD

My sister (youngest, 24) has two kids, 4 & 1, and i (oldest, 30) just have my one who’s 6mo old right now, so i ask her for advice or call her to vent about things sometimes. Well im tired of her turning around and telling my other family members that I’m “losing my sh*t.” Literally have not lost my sh*t nor have i ever freaked out to her about my baby, i just call her to talk and tell her what stage my baby is in or talk through how im feeling, but she chooses to tell people that im like a complete nutcase or something which worries me that my family is going to start being judgmental about me as a mother or looking at me funny like I’m some fragile ticking time bomb.

What would you do in this situation? I’m already pretty much decided that I’ll stop telling her anything about my struggles, but I’m almost at the point where i feel like it should be confronted because she, of all people, should understand what I’m going through.

Night time routine

Heya, my 3 week old daughter is currently exclusively breastfed and I’m not pumping. Can anyone recommend the best way to share the load with my partner? At the moment I’m doing all the feeds/burbs/settling and my partner is sleeping through which obviously isn’t sustainable, I’m trying to work out the best way to get him involved. Any advice very much appreciated!

Rapid cool/ hot shot method

Sorry if this sound stupid but how are we doing the hot shot method?
Are we boiling the kettle and letting it cool a little before adding to hot flask? Then with the cool water do you boil the kettle and leave it to cool right down before putting into another flask?
My baby brain is fried trying to work out the easiest way!