I want to stay but I just don’t know

I don’t know where to start really , feel like I’m really struggling with it all today .
I’m pregnant with my second and this time around it’s been difficult just emotionally really the pregnancy is easy this time .

But me and my partner hasn’t had the best two years of our relationship I found out a lot of him lying to me at the start of the relationship and throughout the whole relationship really .
I have always made it clear about my boundaries literally from day one . It’s not been easy with him .
Lying to my face about other girls
Eg stalking with girls he knew / Attention from other girly. Hiding a lot of things then me founding out for him to be honest with me . There been a lot more as well . With porn I found him wanking in the toilet at home and he was doing it at work . When my little
One was 3 months old I went to work for a evening shift and found out he was watching “soft porn “ (onlyfan YouTube videos) on the main tv while having our daughter by himself for the first time . Out of everything I can’t get past that .
I do love him and he going to therapy amd he saying he wants to be with me but lately o feel like o have falling out of love and dont know how to get it back .
Any advice please.

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Sex life is 🫠

Im a little desperate already . Im not a huge fan on blowjobs but I’m doing it because I know he likes it . If he wants it in a car, during work meeting , on the balcony, on the beach everywhere I’m okay to do that . However, I’m not getting anything in return. I mean the last time he went down was more than 1.5 years ago . Okay, I was pregnant maybe he did not feel like doing it while I had a belly as he told me . , but I’m not pregnant already for awhile and I’m always telling him that I want him to go down and he is always having an excuse like “tomorrow “ etc . At the beginning it was funny and I was like okayyy but now it’s not as I’m not enjoying our sex in general . Like the process itself does not make me finish . As I’m breastfeeding and super dry down there and I’m always telling him to put lubricant as it’s hurting me . And sometimes it feels like I am begging for that as he is more comfortable without it , but damn IM NOT OKAY without it . So basically I do not remember when was the last time I have finished during sex . I understand that now with a baby it’s hard to fully enjoy it and have enough time for everything. But still . Just kiss me and put your dick inside me does not seems sexy . To be honest I understand why in marriage women does not want to have sex . Like I feel like it’s already work that I have to do not a pleasure. I’ve been telling him that but as I can see no changes applied 🫠

Question about ejaculation

I tell my partner to wear a condom not only for protection but also so that there's no mess to clean up when I get up to use the toilet. Is this normal?
I ask because I now have the contraceptive pill but I still want him to wear a condom.

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