In the midst of mental breakdown alone with toddlers

Uhg so I deal eith anxiety,depression and intrusive thoughts ( that are usually su*** inclined) my family is toxic and doesn't care.

BD is an alcoholic drunk.

I feel I don't have time to get help but I desperately need it. So bad. My medicaid lapsed..I tried my gp but like I said I have no insurance. I don't have much c money. I have no friends.

I'm afraid I'll unalive myself. Please help. I'm trying to hang on as much as possible but the thoughts are alot. I've been to the ER. They gave me atarax which doesn't help.

I'm trying plz help.

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Dial 988. There is help.

Call your local DCF/DSS and let them know you are worried for yourself and your kids. They can help.

You are not alone. ❤️

@Joanne what will dss do? Will 988 offer free to low cost counseling and meds?

Please follow Joanne’s advice. Even if you’ve given up the will to want to live for yourself, think about your child/ children. They need their mom and medication plus therapy can help you get to a healthy place.

@Lindsey I very much WANT to live. I do. It's just my mental health is tanking and on E right now. I'm trying to get the help I need. I want medication I do. I tried to visit my GP but my medicaid lapsed. Not sure what else to do. When I do get paid it goes to bills. I am trying though. I just feel like laying in bed though.

I’m thankful you still want to live- as someone who struggles with mental health there have been times when I didn’t want to live anymore and I know how dark that place can be. I hate that healthcare is so shitty and that services aren’t available to everyone. Being self employed I have to pay a huge premium and the coverage is terrible. Have you cut checked into self pay rates for a GP? They often have discounted rates and also care credit is a medical credit card you can apply for with 6+ months of interest free charges available. Feel free to message me, I’m so sorry you’re going through this.

I’m so sorry that you’re feeling this way. Just remember everything is temporary. You won’t feel this way forever! Things will get better! Reapply for Medicaid, so you can get back on it. Seek out low or no cost counseling. Pick someone that has a background in maternal therapy, not just any random therapist. Tell them you want to focus on therapy and natural ways to get better. Not just medication. Find something that makes you feel good and relieves stress, like yoga, exercise, running, dancing, listening to music, walking, hiking… something physical to help you feel better. Also 988 is a good resource. Feel free to reach out as well. ❤️

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