Feeling not good enough

I always see couples and the union always looks soo effortless. The guy will easily commit with no issues ! Profess his love , protects and provides , treats his lady like a queen. Then theres me who’s had a bd that wouldn’t commit to me for years and EVERYONE knows it . They know it triggers me so they know what to attack to make me feel insecure . Its humiliating He would come to my home , take me out , play house , but never commit. That would ruin someone’s self esteem. Also mentioned when i was pregnant that he didnt want me , i wasnt his type , and one day we would have our own families . My last relationship also started this way but we ended up together for 3 years , so after i was faced with the situation again it wouldn’t be a big deal bt it destroyed me . Then flip it around and cant stay away from me . Hell be around me daily but never could do nothing nice for me to make me feel special. Never did i think i would ever end up in that situation.. years later and i am still in shock. Now i feel i have seen the worst and anything else would be better than this. I just cant wait but it felt good to get this off.

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You deserve better. I felt the same like after I broke up with my bd, months later I starting seeing this guy. He would do things like go on dates with me and buy my roses. But never wanted to commit to me and actually date me because I’m pregnant and he doesn’t want someone who has a child. Honestly it’s better to break things off with these type of guys because you want commitment and someone who likes you for who you are.

i know i want a husband and i can’t waste my time

It is so sad that you feel this way. I can definitely relate to this type of thinking in my darkest hours. Some of your thinking style is called "compare and despair" as in you compare your life to others and when they don't marry up we despair we are not good enough or deserving enough. I don't excel at it but I do try to tell myself that I don't know that ladies journey, I don't know the sacrifices she has made to get to that place and I don't know the reality/hardships in her world. It helps me, I hope it can help you too. These shakey men you have met are a pure reflection of themselves not you! It sounds like one guy you mention went to great lengths to manipulate you and keep you right where he wanted you- available without the commitment a relationship needs. You are not a bad person for wanting loving and thinking that you will get this by giving love, patience, understanding. These are the great qualities of a woman. Put this chapter to bed, work on your strengths and love will find you xxx

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