I feel like I don't want the baby

I recently found out I was pregnant, and it was definitely a shock. I was on the verge of completely ending things with the baby daddy but I stayed a few months as I felt we could work on things. But now he's mentioned that he doesn't want to be with me which is fine as I've learnt there's been consistent amount of infidelity on his part. But I've just felt so enraged that I can't really move on because I am pregnant with his baby. I don't want to feel this way but I feel this pregnancy is stopping me from really healing and finding someone who can actually love me. I feel like this pregnancy and having a baby is taking away my freedom and running my future.

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How far gone are you?

13 weeks

My pregnancy was not planned (was on pill and still taking that until I got sick thinking it was actual pill making me sick to then go to GP to change up my contraception to find was actually pregnant 🤦‍♀️) and found out later than most as a result and it sent me down down into depression of the unknowns of being solo mother
I’d say around your gestation mark if your not in typical stereotypical happy excited couple together situation like I wasn’t and one or two other mums I’ve since met who had similar life circumstance. Your hormones are raging at this stage and your life circumstance is not how you want it to be and it’s gonna comfound every negative feeling you have for sure.

I contemplated termination as with no set cert conception date they couldn’t even tell how far gone I was and couldn’t get a scan until later and with fact I was on pill etc
But.. I’ve always longed to be a mum and after some long consideration in end, cancelled that termination I had to pay out for privately

But my freedom so to speak was already limited as I have two large high need dogs that took on from an ex yrs back and my freedom for the next 5 or so years is already limited and they run my immediate future 🥴 so I thought tbh maybe you can’t plan the right time to be a mum, and she is easier to take with me places and travel than these two oversized dogs I have but love 🤣🤦‍♀️.

That was just my life circumstance. If you’re still young, without baggage and really don’t want this baby and see if affecting your future in a negative way. Maybe speak to someone about it and decide soon what your options are going to be because they are life changing and you cannot just nip to the shop at end of the road if they’re in bed and your a solo mother. The child needs your love twice over just being one parent.

It could be your emotions and hormones getting to you from your situation but really consider if it’s that or you really don’t want this child.

Thanks for advice 🙏

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