Probably a rant

Sorry for the long post in advance. My husband and I met 4 years ago he was good with words we have got 12 years age difference being the first man in my life I fell very hard for him. I always had a complicated relationship with my parents due to them toxic marriage I was never close to them but I do love them the most. So I got married to this guy who’s my husband now. I was so much in love he cheated on me so many times had sex with multiple women sexting was just like a norm I forgave him everytime because I had no place to fell back not even my parents. He sometimes not used to even come home at night. When I started raising my voice against it he manipulated me with good words first later started saying you were the one who wanted me in first place I don’t even love you. After trying for 3 years I ended up being pregnant ( I thought having a baby will sort us out ) which unfortunately ended in still birth he was there for me whole time later I found out it was due to chlamydia he gifted me. I still did not leave. He can’t even have sex with me he can’t get hard and when we have sex he has to watch porn to cum. And most importantly he’s not helping me financially at all I’m the one who’s supporting him and the house. I’m so hurt and done he keeps on saying to me find someone for yourself you are ugly not my type. I really want to leave but I don’t have any support system not even any friends I really don’t know what to do 😣

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Omg! I’m so sorry you going through this. You deserve better than this I hope you find the strength to draw the line and leave. You can DM if you wanna talk

You can probably become “intentionally homeless” and ask the council for help saying you need ‘priority help’ as your in an abusive relationship. Don’t know if it works for emotional abuse but worth a try at looking that up.
Sounds like a tough road ahead

You may have a local domestic abuse support organisation that can help you get out of the relationship lovely. They usually help you with housing situation & can provide support. You do not have to put up with this, no one deserves to be treated like that, have a Google and get in touch it is likely to be free & confidential xx

Seems like your independent holding down your house and financial responsibilities it seems like you have that under your belt so your part way there to letting him go. It also seems like your holding on to trauma bonds, as you say you keep forgiving him and yet he is just saying bad things, affairs and the intimacy part. Be brave and you will have strength to see say no you need to leave. My advice would be to seek counselling for yourself definitely as you have been through this traumatic domestic situation and it may impact you and hopefully they can help you to gain confidence so that in the future you will be fully equipped to meet that loving guy. Youre more than enough, don't settle, want better for you and your baby, it's hard at first but you will get through it. Seek support from your GP, health visitor, friends, domestic lines, domestic violence or womens organisations that are really great at support network.

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