Miscarriage

Unfortunately you have to just let yourself feel all the joy and all the grief whenever they come up. It’s absolutely a lot. This month I should de due the second baby I miscarried and it’s grief again. For that baby, for the others, for the hope of overlapping maternity leave with my friend, for any chance of having a happy optimistic pregnancy ever again, for the long gone conviction that i would have 2 children.

Unfortunately that’s normal… Almost 2 months after my miscarriage I found out that mom of my son’s friend at daycare just had a baby and it hurt so bad… Especially because I didn’t even know she was pregnant and the last time I saw her I was pregnant and she didn’t look pregnant at all. And I thought I had processed my miscarriage pretty well. I’m happy for her of course, and I’m over it now, but somehow it hurt pretty bad in the moment and lingered for a few days.

I’m going through the exact same thing. My miscarriage has been ongoing now for 2 weeks and I’ve been back and forth to hospital.

My friend at work is due any time now and I should have been due from my chemical pregnancy last year the same time as her and in the fact I’m going through a miscarriage now. It’s a horrible feeling but also totally normal.

Let yourself feel the way you do, it’s ok and it’s normal. Some days I’m ok and others I’m really upset. I try and put a smile on when I need to but my god deep down it hurts. I think it’s sometimes you truly never get over, it’s something that you learn to live with. You’ll never get over this I don’t think, there’s always going to be something that pulls you back to this. Lean on your support and know how you feel is valid and normal ❤️