Imposter syndrome

Hi all. Just looking for a little encouragement or even for someone to relate. I have a middle school aged kiddo, a 4 year old and a 2 month old. I am freshly stay at home. And let’s not forget 2 months postpartum lol
I feel like an imposter being at home with my kids. My two month old has a yeast infection that’s bothering her a lot, my 4 year old is attention starved and then my middle schooler comes home and gets frustrated by not having more time with me specifically. (We had some hospital stays for my 4 year old the last 2 months, plus me being postpartum/exhausted and now a clingy, hurting baby) I feel like an imposter thinking I could handle 3 kids. I feel split in 3- Nevermind not having anything left at the end of the day for my husband or myself. My house is a disaster (yes, I know this can wait, but it’s so overwhelming and not helping my mental chaos) my four year old is getting addicted to tv, my milk stash is almost gone from my husband taking a night feed for me and not having even a second to pump. How do you balance multiple kids, quality pumping time, cleaning, cooking, etc?!
I can’t even get time to eat, let alone shower. Is this temporary?? Is this postpartum?? I can’t just let my 2month old cry- I have a physical reaction to it so she’s attached to me constantly but my 4 year old needs me. I’m sure park time would help but I need to pump! What the heck is this life lol I’m at my wits end.

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Nursery funding

My child turned 9 months last week. I applied for government funded hours nearly 2 months ago and so well within the required timeframe for the April term, however upon receiving my first invoice without the funding applied and having questioned this, I have now been informed that the stretched funding doesn’t start until 4th May.

Has anyone else been told it won’t start until May?

The government site states it should start from April 1st, and so I intentionally set my nursery start and return to work as the start of April for that reason, knowing that I wouldn’t be able to afford the nursery on my sole income without the funding

Jealous of my husband

I’m so jealous of him and it’s making me resentful. We have a ten week old and I’m jealous that he is at work all day. I’m jealous he can leave for lunch and actually eat an uninterrupted lunch. Take a phone call uninterrupted. Chat with a friend he runs in to uninterrupted. Even go to the bathroom when he wants uninterrupted. He comes home from work when he wants. He’s not on a set schedule. Some days are late some are early. It depends on when he’s done. I’m jealous he can come home at 10pm and shower, eat and go right to bed uninterrupted because I already have the baby asleep. He doesn’t have to worry about anything house wise or baby wise because I’ve done it all. Meanwhile I’m covered in puke and crap and smell like rotten milk. When he is home he is VERY active and helpful. So it’s not that. I’m just jealous his world hasn’t changed and mine has I guess. This isn’t something he’s doing wrong so I’m not sure how to get past this. I wish I could keep him home all day because that’s how helpful he is, but I understand he obv needs to work.

NHS job

Anyone work for the NHS and does 12 hour shifts? How do you work around childcare and your partners job?

Toddlers

How often are your toddlers asking for food? My oldest who is 3 just finished a whole plate of food and not even 10 minutes later he’s requesting more food. I know he’s going through a growth spurt, but how do you respond to this.

He has no respect for anything to do with me.

Husband and I decided to separate 3 days ago. I've been sleeping on the floor in the kids room, and we both have to stay in the same apartment for a while. He wont stop pushing little things and I am reaching my limit. Photos in comments

Is this normal?

Is it just my husband that does this? He is able to work from home via his computer and in the mornings and evenings he is on there doing his job. When he is done for the day he tends to stay in the room and either play video games or watch something. He will occasionally come out and play with the girls for a few minutes and that’s it but when I really need him he says he is busy. My daughters are both 1 year old now and I am just wondering how much involvement should he have with them now?
Idk if this is the norm or not…..