fighting resentment

I love my husband so much but when I am breastfeeding at all hours of the night and i look over to see him sleeping i cant help but feel pangs of resentment. He works full time and I’m a SAHM so i literally WANT him to get his sleep, i choose not to wake him up for diaper changes or anything because he works hard outside all day and he needs to rest. Even so, illogically my brain just gets frustrated to see him sleeping when im waking up 3-7 times a night to bf.

Ive never liked or wanted kids and did not plan or want to get pregnant, so even though i love my baby i think when im so exhausted caring for the baby its also making me resentful. Everytime he says he is so tired i just want to drop kick him.
How do i manage this? or can you just tell me im not alone in it.
I really feel like he doesnt grasp how much work breastfeeding at night is and how exhausted it makes me.

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I can relate to this! It’s terrible to say but I resented my husband so much. Our compromise was for him to do the diaper changes at least. He was able to fall back asleep right away so he was still getting enough rest. But feeding takes hours so I felt like abit of a break for me. Or it at least gave me time to get a drink or snack while he was changing his diaper

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It shouldn’t wear you out physically. Ensure you’re getting proper nutrients and I do feel mad at times because he doesn’t want to help me clean either. We can do it! Patience is virtue

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I know exactly how you feel. I took on all the night shifts even before he went back to work so I could pump after feeding since I needed to be up anyway. It made me resentful and it was really tough. One day I just asked if he could watch him for one night so I could get a decent chunk of sleep and he agreed. We kept that same schedule from then on and even just getting rest for one night a week made a world of difference. Exhaustion is so hard and can definitely make you feel some type of way.

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I did it myself… I wasn’t feeling like this

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I think your resentment stems from never being able to clock out of your job which is sahm . When he clocks out of his work, he gets to sleep and you’re still working ( pumping).

What are his responsibilities as a parent to help take some of the load off of you ? And if he can’t take on any ,is hiring a nanny possible? Having a mother or in law come live with you to help

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My husband works and hardly gets any sleep and he still helps me not majorly but a little bit and it means the world to me.

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