Mamas with depression, anxiety, and other mental health disorders

I lost my shit at Easter because my family kept saying mean things until I exploded.

I do not have a good relationship with my mom or brother. They have never been nice to me and there's been very clear favoritism shown to my brother my entire life. Neither my mother or brother have had any involvement with my twins since they were born. I have needed help and asked for help many many times because I need it. They have said no mostly and when they did commit to help bailed on me last minute leaving me in crisis (several times before surgery/important medical tests for my son when I needed childcare for my daughter). They have refused to attend any of the children's events or take them anywhere. (Never took them to a park, any activity ect). My mom has not seen the kids since Christmas. I have given up asking them for anything because it's just too hurtful. So I visit 3-4 times a year. Mom's house is filthy (she is capable of cleaning just chooses not to and has fiance's to have it professionally cleaned). Often the kids clothes never come clean after we visit. The food isn't good, (cooks old food or just not enough for everyone). Today we went for Easter. I just wanted to try to have a good day and then go home. My brother started poking the bear first thing. Wanting an expensive birthday party for the kids. He hasn't attended one for them in years , and never bought them a gift at any time. I told him that the kids don't have friends and it's very difficult to make friends with my son's health problems and disabilities. I have been trying very hard for years but I do not have a single friend to invite to a party. That I cannot afford an expensive party like he was describing especially if I have nobody to invite. The kids started jk in March and he thinks I can invite Kids I don't know somehow and they will attend when they have newly met the kids. He also feels I can just demand an EA for my son at school and it will be done immediately. That I can call Doug Ford the primer of Ontario and he would take my calls and get it done. Doug Ford does not like special needs kids and has cut funding substantially. He says it's my fault the kids didn't have friends and a party. That I act like a victim and it's my fault they don't spend time with the kids. Both of them have zero interest in them, refuse invitations, never come to our home and don't help when I go out there. I lost my shit and screamed and left. Why do they have to be like this? I might not evér go there again

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Am I being unreasonable for wanting my partner to hold our 1 month old with both hands?

Basically, what it says. I have a lot of anxiety about the baby being dropped. It's not that I think my husband is incapable, weak or too inexperienced. I've told him this, that babies can randomly wriggle out of your arms at any moment. I've been trying to work on this anxiety to not project, so I don't say anything while we're at home. When we're out and about, I get very anxious because instead of putting the baby in the carrier, he sometimes carries her with one arm and pushes the pram with the other hand. I try to say "two hands on the baby, let me push the pram", but he insists it's fine.

I feel like an uneven street slab, something slippery, someone bumping into you, the baby wriggling in an unexpected way, any of this could happen to anyone. I don't want to be annoying but I don't see why he won't just either leave her in the pram or put her in the carrier. He said doing things just to soothe my anxiety doesn't help anyone, and while I agree with that, I think it's a valid concern while we're out and about.

I think it's possible I've got some serious postpartum anxiety going on too, which obviously isn't his fault. I am already seeing a therapist because of PTSD and anxiety, so I'm waiting for my appointment to talk about this. I'm just wondering what your take on this is.

What do you think?

Parenting…

If your husband was happy to do bath & bedtime every night after work and also spend the most time with your kid/kids at the weekends to give you a break… how would you feel about it?

Feeling judged and deflated, and a bit annoyed. Do I need to chill out?

I have a 10m old baby, friends with about 4 or 5 other women who have babies similar ages. Also, my sister has a 3YO. All their babies don’t have problems sleeping, eating etc.

My boy is HIIIGH input, all or nothing baby. He’s never slept well, he has zero interest in food, screams crying being in the car and has to be entertained at every second otherwise he cries.

Whenever I’m at family events (like today), I feel like everyone is judging me because of this. They’re constantly trying to feed my son, as though he’s going to start eating and I feel they think that it’s my fault he is the way he is? My sister kept making comments about how she’d do it and making comments ‘a second time mum would make to a first time mum’, but she’s a FT mum and as far as I’m concerned, we have the exact same experience raising a baby up to 10 months old. When her child was same age, he was soooo chilled out, our experiences are not the same at all, she wasnt surviving off minimal sleep, nor are the others trying to step in.

No one makes direct comments to me, but it’s always comments with maybe I’m taking the wrong way.

Try this, try that. Yes. I have. Leave me alone.

How do I stop being a bedroom parent? 😞

Please don't judge I wasn't always like this. Well I was before I had kids but after my first things were different. I don't feel safe in my living room. I don't like having the blinds open and people being able to see in. I don't like going in the kitchen because even tho I've been in my own house for more than 5 years I still feel like someone's going to come in and start complaining that I'm doing everything wrong or I'm "stealing". I hate making food in my kitchen. I can't cook (except the basics but tbh more than some people I know) but I can follow a recipe but I don't like being in my kitchen for any length of time. I've suffered severe anxiety and depression since I was about 12, after I had my first things were different I was just in my bubble with my baby I didn't care about any of those things anymore. I had a difficult pregnancy with my second and ended up with postpartum depression and anxiety. I breastfed for 6 months and room shared for 8 months, he's 10 months now and I just don't jn know how to fix this this time 😭. It's got to the point my partner has to do meals and tries to get us downstairs but I always just end up taking them back to their room. I don't ignore my kids I spend most of my time in their room with them but I don't want them to end up like me.

Am I being a bad mum??

So this weekend my family had loads of Easter fun planned but my 2 year old has got chicken pox. She's fine in herself, eating and drinking fine etc.

We cancelled plans because we don't want her to spread it.

Ive also had plans to go out locally this evening once kids are asleep for a few drinks with friends, but my husband is giving me a hard time saying im selfish for still wanting to go.

Ive had a rough few weeks and really been looking forward to letting my hair down, kid free for a few hours and now he is making me feel like a shit mum. Am I?

CHILD MINDER HELP

Hi guys I'm thinking of getting a childminder for my 16 month old and I currently live in the Barnes area does anyone know any good local ones also if at all possible a Muslim childminder? Also What's your opinion between childminding and nurseries? He's currently in a nursery but I like the idea of him having one person he can grow to trust and learn from as with nurseries you have teachers switching throughout the day which feels may cause some attachment issues.