Im looking for her (ILLINOIS) 👀
Trying not to be so desperate for a mommy bestiie so I don’t attract the wrong friend. But everyone I know I could be friends with live so far… 😩 This is my last time asking . Do any of you bitches wanna be friends ?
I’m awkward weird strange but I have pure intentions. I don’t want nothing extra from you. I just simply want a real friend. I like reading, doing yoga, watching tv, working out, meditating, being silly, and helping others. 😂 yes I’ll spoil you , yes you can pop up at my house , & yessssss You’ll love it here HO! I had my baby girl Christmas Eve 2021. Now pregnant with my son due in August. I’m a Scorpittarius (Scorpio/Sagittarius cusp) 31 yr young ,married to my childhood sweetheart and new to the QC area (Rock Island,IL). I am bisexual but don’t worry if you’re not interested I won’t flirt. I do struggle with my mental health issues of major depression, insomnia, PTSD, and severe anxiety. I gotta passport and ready for some friends to go on a girls trip. I want some real friends who gone come through and it’s vice versa 🥳 & YES IMA TEXT YOU BCK ! If I find my friend group I promise u stuck 🥰🥰
I deserve better right?
No judgement. No mean comments please. Guess i’m just venting and looking for support.
My baby is a couple months old and i recently found out im pregnant. I’m getting an abortion. I kind of already mourned that. I have been ok for the last couple of days but the procedure is tomorrow. So i’m sure those bad feelings will come up again tomorrow and the days to come. I’m not looking to change my mind about this procedure. I was hopeful with my first baby. But after pregnancy and postpartum, my boyfriend has gotten progressively worse. Mean, controlling, stubborn, closed minded, lack of support and care. He thinks going to work should be the extent of his contribution to our family. He wants me to have this new baby in pregnant with, of course. Explaining to him that I feel like our relationship is not in the right place and hasn’t been the last year. I know guys. I should’ve protected myself better to avoid this. He said he would support whatever i decide but wants me to have the baby obviously. Hes cold, distant. Barely speaks to me. Treats me with no respect. ETC. I’m so upset that he can’t even support me in getting this abortion that hurts me to get but I feel like there’s no other way for me. I can’t take on 2 babies by myself. I wouldn’t be a good mother, emotionally. I wouldn’t show up the way i’d want to because i’d be a mess emotionally. Haven’t had any emotional support or much help with the baby “because he needs to rest” and his argument is also that if i don’t ask he’s not doing anything. Im trying to finish a masters degree and become a professional in my field. If i have this baby im setting my career back until they’re both in kindergarten.
Can’t kick him out. Can’t go anywhere else. Stuck exactly where i’m at. Tolerating his attitude and distance. We went to couples therapy for the first time the other day. I can imagine the therapist was like holy shit afterwards. I keep going in circles of I don’t want this to be the relationship my baby sees growing up. To, feeling sad when i picture him without us, alone and lonely. To feeling like fuck this shit, better off alone, basically have been doing it alone either way. To feeling sad again that this is how he shows up for us and that I wish it was different. Thinking to myself is there anything I can do to make it better but I feel like even if I was the picture perfect partner I think he’d still be an asshole. Just circles I keep going in. He’s said some awful things. From calling me a murderer to saying that he has authority over me that it’s God him then me in that hierarchy order. Quoting the bible when he sees fit. He’s not even that religious he just follows what is convenient. Ignoring the part I guess where the bible says that he should treat his “wife” (not married lol what a joke). like jesus treated the church. It’s just a whole lot of nonsense (I’m not religious either).