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Mamas with depression, anxiety, and other mental health disorders

Am I wrong? Long read….

Backstory on me. I am a mother of 3 kids. My oldest is 2, My middle child is 1, and I have a newborn. I have a friend who has one child who is 7 and autistic.
So my friend is working Monday through Friday from 6 AM to 330pm or 6:30 PM, it’ll take her 45 minutes to get home. Before I had given birth I was OK with watching her child for a while, she would drop her child off in the morning and the bus will come get her and then the bus will drop her off after she get out of school. During this time, my friend has not paid me. She will send her child over to my house without food so her daughter will eat up all my children’s snacks and I literally would not have any money to get food that I barely had, while I was on unpaid maternity leave two months before I have given birth and she knew this. So now that I had given birth, I was in the hospital for three days and she had asked again for me to watch her child. I told her no she got upset and felt some type of way and she had asked why and I told her because I am overstimulated with the new baby in two toddlers then she was “joking” and said well nobody told you to have all those kids and you should’ve gotten an abortion and I got pissed at her she apologize and hasn’t said anything for a week and asked me again to watch her child. I told her a few days out the week she ask again why not the whole week and I told her why and she kept trying to have me watch her child and I said no. Now that I am back at work she’s trying to get my schedule so on my off day, she wants me to watch her child and again She has not paid me at all. My fiancé had noticed while on the phone that I would get overly frustrated when her daughter is here, especially with the two toddlers, she will cry and cry because my kids are crying or took something that was theirs. Of course I’ll tell my kids to share, but then again is theirs and she will cry and we’ll tell them to shut up and sometimes push them and I had to keep reminding her that they are babies. So now that I am back at work I told her no because all my off days I want to relax now she feel some type of way as if her child is a burden. Don’t get me wrong. I love her child, but it’s too much to watch her child with a newborn a two toddlers, who needs me. I already worked 3, 12 hour shifts Monday through Friday and sometimes work the weekends. I just want to relax when I get home and she keeps saying I’m making up excuses no because you’re not in the position that I am in. I’m already suffering from anxiety, depression, and postpartum. I’m overstimulated and overwhelmed and tired. This is not the only thing that she does. She keeps asking me for favors and I’m tired of favors.
Am I wrong? For finally putting my foot down