Is your child the priority?
I saw a post where the mother complained how people don’t understand how hard it is to go outside and have a meal with others etc because her toddler has a routine. She would have to pack food, toys, nappies etc and try to figure out nap time whilst outside so staying home is much easier. We all know what it’s like when your child misses their nap and then nighttime becomes a nightmare. Everything is out of routine. It affects the toddler. I’m assuming that mums who are always out and about all day long, have a toddler who goes with the flow and nap anywhere, eats anything and isn’t overstimulated? Personally mine seems to have a hard time in new places and new faces and enjoys her routine and comfort at home. For me, she is the priority but other mothers are saying that it’s wrong and the child should work around them, otherwise they wouldn’t be able to do anything. In my head, I’ve just accepted that until she goes to school, I’m going to be in mummy mode 24/7 for the next few years. I don’t see myself enjoying being outside if my girl is upset and tired. How do you do it?
Coming to a realization
At the age of 33, I realize I may never truly get my happy ending or experience the love I deserve in this life. To summarize… my childhood was a mess, I have no real relationship with my family, no friends to call and laugh/vent with, my spouse is emotionally unavailable most days and is starting to feel more like a “cousin” than a relationship since he is my Childs father. My life is the endless routine of waking up, working from home, doing schoolwork and going to bed. My 4 year old is the best thing that has ever happened to me and is the only highlight in each day. He makes mommy feel seen, loved, and appreciated. I think I will find my happiness in making him happy.
