My husband keeps cheating on me and I can’t leave

I don’t know what’s wrong with me… he cheats on me constantly and I know I should leave. I know I deserve better. I know he’s a loser and piece of shit and everything anyone could possibly say to me, I already know. Yet I look at him and I see the only family I’ve ever known. I see all the times he’s held me during my panic attacks. I see my whole life sitting in front of me, everything I worked so hard for. And now it’s all crumbling and broken. It’s like I want to believe in him so much because I’ve always put all my trust in him, and now I just feel like I don’t who he is anymore or even who I am for staying… this isn’t me. Yet I can’t bring myself to go.

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It sounds like you're in the beginning stages of grieving your relationship. At this point, you have to decide if this is enough for you to leave or if this is something you can live with. Many women pick/have picked either option. Its up to you on what you are willing to allow. There is no one size fits all answer for relationships. They are messy and complex like humans. If the constant cheating is not enough for you to leave him, then don't. Make your peace with it as a fact of life and focus on your family and life together. If you know its not sustainable, begin planning your exit and getting your ducks in a row for when you are ready to leave. Best of luck to you.

Oh honey..im so sorry. I understand how you feel. Mine has cheated before over the phone and I get it. I stayed. We're going through something else now and I just wanna keep the life I worked to have with him and all the same type of stuff you said. You do deserve better! Its hard and gonna be hard, i think you'll get there eventually to leave him. Sooner the better girl, for your heart. Unless you feel like you wanna give him a taste of his own medicine since he does it constantly i wouldn't blame you, but i can see the way you talk about him you wouldn't which makes you a better person than him. Again I'm sorry girl. You'll find that will power soon enough. Don't let him keep hurting you.

I am really sorry you are going through this. Just know what hes doing is NOT love. He doesnt love you anymore. Grieve what was and try to heal and get out hun 💜

I can’t imagine what you are going through and the hurt you feel - I feel like you should leave because if he really loved and respected you he wouldn’t hurt you especially repeatedly. I feel like what may help to is leaning on community like friends and family because it will hurt at first but it gets better - also Jesus!! Lean and put your trust in him - church helped me through some of my hardest times and even if you aren’t too sure about it I hope you give it a chance!

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Hey, im just looking for some advice or anyone who has been in this situation and what they may do differently.

I have a nearly 2yr old and a 3month baby. 2yr old is in nursery 3 days per week as this what i worked, im not returning to work until another 8months. 2yr old in nursery 3 days works well and then when hes not in nursery I make sure my time with him is mostly focused on him and we both enjoy this.

Currently im considering baby starting nursery 1 day per week. I feel really crap for feeling like this and that I shouldn't feel like this. Im finding if hard not having even a few hours to myself , stop start housework and falling behind with things, i also do some Bookkeeping for my partner, I guess I find the balance difficult. I then feel guilty doing housestuff around him and like im ignoring him.

Im thinking if I had 1 day per week just for me, I can do 1thing nice for myself, blitz the house and food prep for the week and I will be less stressed and overwhelmed...

Im worried if I will regret sending him nursery 1day per week so young, I dont know once the time has gone its gone but I know nursery is good and my older son enjoys it there and he learns so much... can anyone share their views or what they did in similar situations?

I also wouldnt be questioning this as much if a family member wanted him for 1 day per week but thats not an option.
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