I’ve never been more lonely in my whole life

I feel you girl!
I was a single mum to my baby girls for the 1st 4 years of her life. I too suffered severe PND.
And there were times i asked my mum to take her because i didnt see a way out.
I didnt have 'village' either and its the lonliest! I started feeling better when she was aboit 5 months then covid hit, so i was on my own totally.
It was a struggle but i got through and i promise you will too. I mean im on my again with both my children baby 4.5months and daughter is 6 this time o chose to do it alone as its esier than raising kids and a manchild 🤣 As you have said you trying to make little plans etc. One thing that really helped me was baking..
If you want to chat feel free to drop me a message.
Keep doing what your doing, YOU WILL BE FINE! :)

find a hobby that you enjoy that you don’t have to rely on anyone else for companionship. you create your own village with time join a mom group in your community

your body is still adjusting to a HUGE hormone change. give it some time to even out. a history with depression also makes you more likely to feel lower during pregnancy. also, just because your village doesn't look the way you expected doesn't mean it isn't there. think of specific ways the people that love you can support you, and ask for it. ❤️

I hope you know you don’t need to have it all figured out right now. The first trimester can be so lonely and depression always adds a layer of ten times the weight to every fear. You are going through this huge emotional and physical change at the same time, and that does not make you weak or ungrateful for your pregnancy. Also, the whole idea of having a ‘village’ can make people feel worse when they don’t have one yet


but villages are often built overtime, not magically already there. You deserve support and there is nothing wrong with asking for help professionally too especially with your history of depression. Right now, just surviving the day is enough. You don’t have to be smart or excited every second to be a good mum already

My heart hurts for you bc ik how bad it is feeling this way baby girl you got this push thru try getting on meds get a therapist psychiatrist whatever you have to do …they will help. eaiser said then done bc im not doing what i should but you gotta! Sending love❤️

The world really downplays how hard it really is to be a mother and go through postpartum and all that, but I do believe you got this❤️

I don’t have a village at all:( it’s so tough. I really struggled after having my daughter. For me I needed medication and talk therapy. I am still working on building my village but it’s SO HARD