Baby daddy

my baby daddy broke up with me whist he was at work, then got his dad to get some of his things.
he’s always on and off with me, he blames me for a lot of things and lacks accountability, everyone around him agrees he’s in the right, he’s doing the right thing because they know half a story they don’t see half the pain he’s caused me.
Anyway a few months ago he made a comment about me not working mid argument, he said I never take the family out, I never pay big expenses because im broke.
so I got a job, I’m super exited to start we spoke about how to improve our future. It’s night shifts so I would need his support as I have a 7 month old and four month old, I said id help him pay for a car, if he supported me he came over last night and told me we’d work on it after a day no contact, he told me he loves me and he old stop leaving me. I felt happy reassured that he’d change then this morning he left me. Now I can’t work as I can’t get the childcare because i can’t afford it. I feel so let down and screwed over.
I have been there though him having depression, no car, no money I stayed when I should have left, all the night he hurled mean insults, belittled my parenting, belittled me. made me feel bad for my sons behaviour (he struggles in social situations). I would have stayed with the that man til the day I died and put up with everything for the sake of our children and to be left like im nothing hurts. I take accountability for what I have done freshly postpartum but postpartum hard expecially after a c section.
He told me he wanted to focus on himself, his healing, live with his mum where he has next to no responsibilities.
I told him he can have our daughter in the week, he can struggle to have childcare, he can wonder how he’s going to cope, he can do everything he belittled me for. I was so exited for this job and I don’t understand why he would say he would be there for our family then leave me after, plan a future then leave me. I loved and respected this man but now all I see is a boy running to his mum, abandoning his responsibilities. he said he would always be there for my son, he’s also dropped him like he’s nothing.
i gave him all of me, i cooked I cleaned i looked after the children.
I kinda feel used to as we slept together, fixed it then he left me.
I need advice.

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My partner is annoyed that we aren't having sex

So I'm 2 months pp and stitches are barely healed. We have 2 under 2, I'm breastfeeding both and we co sleep with both. We went for a family day out the other day and the next day he's just an asshole. He's being horrible to both me and our daughter and later tells me he's in a bad mood because I didn't surprise him with sexual favours to say thank you for the day out. He said if I can't have sex I should've done something else for him. There isn't one second of the day I'm not with the babies. I do not leave them to sleep in the room together if I'm not there and tbh they wouldn't sleep anyway. We actually only have one bedroom too. He won't allow anyone else in the family to care for the babies so I just don't know what I'm supposed to do. Few days later and I'm still perplexed. What's the solution? Also we were having sex right up until I gave birth so I feel like it hasn't even been that long. And after all of this he's now said he's going to treat me like his sister and he's refusing to communicate with me and just being an asshole.

I think I messed my life up🥺.

Please don’t judge guys… I’ve been with this person for 3 years now. When we first met he lied about everything . How many kids he have ( he told me 2 but has 7 ) also his living situation. He told me he lost his place when he did 5 years in jail and is renting a room at his aunts which he took me over there MULTIPLE times.. i eventually found out it’s his babymothers house… it’s just so much I can go on and on but I don’t want to wrap you guys up about it. Now im currently 24 weeks pregnant by him. When I first found out I told him right away I did not want to keep it I wanted an abortion it’s dumb to me to have a child with a man that still stays with his babymother.. he promised me we would move we went apartment hunting and everything but here we are now still have not moved… im getting nervous I feel like time is moving fast . Also the babymom found out I was pregnant like a month ago . I don’t know if he lied his way out if that or told her the truth at this point especially because he lied so much about the kids in the beginning and before she “found out” he was over my house literally every night now he barely comes. Im really sad I feel like I should have went with my instinct and not kept the baby. I don’t have space to bring him home with me. I was literally in my party era of life since my 3 year old is potty trained and talking so I was comfortable sending him to family members while I went out now im stuck all over again because I THOUGHT I was settling down to build a family not be a second life to him….

Is it just me or…

Is it just me or have you found people on here that you chat with but it just dies off ?? Am I that dry??? 😂😂😂😂

If there are people that actually want a friendship and to actually chat longer then a week feel free to message me!!

I am around for the long haul!!

Would only getting a child a couple gifts from us be enough for a birthday?

Would love to get more but unfortunately I can’t afford much and I have family who will be getting him some bigger gifts anyway.
But the pressure from seeing other families get their kids a huge pile makes me feel guilty. Money is already tight and I wished I could get all the ideas I have.

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Just looking for Momma Friends

Don't care where your located, just dont have a lot of friends. My life has been bit of a dumpster fire and all of my friends quit talking to me because of some life choices I made.